books...

well, it looks as though, ill be traveling this thanks giving.
i have a long day ahead tomorrow. but- i at least get to start
it off the right way, with a starbucks=] my mom and i are going
to get up as early, as we can. (or as early as she can, i should say.)
and go, get the morning started off, in a good direction. as always,
im happy to go see my dad, but kinna sad. since this is the first year
we are doing thanks giving at home. and not going down to socal.
well, given the exception of myself. i guess there is always next year,
that will be my first thanks giving spent at home.
i went in search of a new book today. and was sadly scooted out of b. dalton
just as i thought maybe i had found one. (i will say, for being such a no good
mall... youd think they would try to stay open a little longer, but- they close
nine.) oh well. im gonna see i if cant get dean to stop at barnes n noble on
the way down south.
well, i should go. good night to you all!

hello, and good bye....

hey guys well... it looks like im gunna be computer-less again. but only until monday.
im going outta town too. for thanks giving ill be at my padre's house. and wont come back until, sunday. after leaving this coming monday. so, that should be fun. im not very excited about driving though. unless..... i get to drive. im working that out right now. or i mean, today im working it out.
well ive gotta go....

hello

hey guys... sorry for not posting. i've been crazy busy. but- debate is over so... woop woop, to that. my days have suddenly not been so well, ya. (without debate i mean.)
i never got on to talk about our six flags trip. it was fun, but there were a grip of people there. so there are a lot of rides that we didnt go on. but- it was still fun. we went on the "something" rapids, as one of our last rides. i had no idea we were going to get that wet! or at least most of us did... i think both the alyssas', zach and myself were the only ones who got soaked. carl, tim, and john got lucky on that one. we had fun. its times like those that i love being with friends. we can all just be ourselves, and be weird... the guys were soo funny. ah, good times.
psh... my hands are so cold. jake and i just got back from skateboarding to get some candy. i really dont like skating against the wind. oh well...

this is amazing.

this took forever to do....

melted my hand...

well, i melted my hand yesterday. ya, it looks kinna deformed. but thats okay.
it happened when i was cooking lunch. the handle of one of the pots was over the steam
of another pot... for a while. and i went to go move it, and didnt really hit that point
of," oh my hand really burns." it was a very slow reaction. im retarded. and ya... i
burned it. haha... i screamed for the first time in, a while. i laughed at the way i
screamed, after i screamed. it was kinna funny. then when i went to turn on the
water to cool it down, the water was hot. now, it has been wrapped up, and looks
a lot like zachs hand. (when his hand was wrapped.) oh well. i had to unwrap it a
few times. ya, that didnt feel to good.

of and if...

of promises, lost and never found.
of new memories that never happened
that were supposed to begin...
of hellos', and good- byes', over the phone.

if lost promises were found,
and new memeories restarted...
if hellos' and good-byes' were said in a differently.
what if?

...of the ifs', and if the ofs'...
of the ifs' that could happen,
and if the ofs' that already happened, could be fixed...
what would happen?

burning up so cal...

hey guys... well, there is a fire down in so cal. and so far its burned its way to palm springs, and four firemen have died because of it... (the fire was started by some arsonist...) these fires are going to be going on for a while... and well- my dad is working those fires. could you all please, pray for my dad and all the rest of the firemen, for their protection and the families of those four firemen who died? (one of the pictures, is of a burning fire-engine... three of the firemen killed were caught inside that engine... and burned in there. i have no idea how the other died.)

okay, im back...

hey guys. well, my socal trip is over. and i'm glad to be home. life is better here... not so much drama. i love my family. but when you walk in and all people talk about it," he said she said... and so and so's mad..." you want to be there so whoever has someone to talk to and vent on. but- sometimes its hard. especially with family. cuz it kinda hurts to see your family, doing that to each other...

on a different subject... i spent four and a half hours in a geology class today. it was intresting and all. but, four and a half hours. ahh... it was a long day. i glazed over at one point and started doodling on my paper. it took a few minutes to pull myself back. but- over all, i did feel like i learned quite a bit. and i really liked all the biblical refrence... this class is once a month for five months... so, its not so bad. time wise i mean...

haha! jack, one of my kittens, is sitting here, really trying to get my attention. purring, meowing, cocking his head, and rolling around... but- he's just not getting the attention he wants. then i pick him up, and he's over it... go figure. oh well... he is a stinker, but he's my little buddy. at least until someone takes him away from me. if anyone does. it looks doubtful so far...

hello...

well, im in socal... and am trying to look on the bright side of it. i cant lie im really not all for being here... i kinda wish i werent. and here, like i said in my other posts, we have nothing but fast food. and since i got that whatever disease illness, thing. my food has been even more limited. i wouldnt eat fast food anyways... (and for those of you who dont know; we're not sure about what or which sickness i have. i hate saying i have a disease, even though thats kinna what it is. im not going to die. i would after a period of many years, if it were the one that i dont remember the name of. the other option is less serious. but i wont die tomorrow. at least not from the disease.)
so anyways. our last game of soccer is next weekend. im excited. well kinna... im sad the season is already pretty much over. but- theres always indoor. im missing the game this weekend, to my moms relief. lol! she thinks the mexico team is too ruff. haha.. oh, last game, a really BIG guy on the other team body slammed me. ya... i have to say i think that that was the only game that i was seriously scared of one of the other players. i tried to avoid him the rest of the game. but-that didnt work out too well. i was slammed again. oh well, it happens.
oh today we went to the Ronald Regan Presidential Library. its not a book library, its a museum... it was amazing! i really enjoied it. ill publish some pictures when i get home... i have to say my favorite part was the airforce one room. it had the plane that Regan used to fly in. we were even able to walk through the plane itself. ya, it was pretty much my favorite part.

my non-posting-ness...

hey everyone. sorry for my recent non-posting-ness. dean was outta town again. so i was computerless. anyways. not much has gone on. its been well... everyday-ish; school, chores, running here, running there. you know the basics.
oh but i am going to hopefully, enter something into the fine arts festival. if i finish it. im a little discouraged at the moment... but hey, if anyone wants to do a preformance with me. tell me. i think it would be pretty fun. (i say that now... who knows. im weird like that.) but- besides that, it should be pretty intresting. i cant say that it would be fun. cause all im doing is entering some art piece or another, and waiting to see what happens...
well, i have to go. dean has to use the computer...

NATO...???

im just going to say. that, i thought doing debate this year would be a little more, tolerable... because ive already done it for a year. so i thought that i would do better, and that i would be more confident. well, this year the task of speech and debate, still proves to be difficult. i feel lost on the whole subject of NATO. ive done a grip of research. and sill have no idea, what im really debating. this seems to be my problem. i did the same thing last year.

i just remembered why i dont like this class...

today...

well, remember before, in my last post, when i said i hadn't died... but that i felt like i did. well, i seriously feel like i have. ahhhh.... i went to bed last night, (or morning) at three a.m... yes and it looks like it'll be a late night tonight too. cause i still have dishes to put away and i have to pick out my church clothes. (not that picking out church clothes takes a lot of time... but when your tired, picking out clothes of any sort is a chore. and it seems like it takes forever.)
the reason i went to bed soo late last night, was because i spent the night over at the wrights house. we were up talking all the way.. until the wee hour of three. yes. so im tired. not to mention i did spend a few hours in the sun. (i could not find any shade. seriously.) i did crazy cleaning in a short amount of time, and i babysat... ya, it was a full day. but- it was a good day.

...crazyness...

hey... wow. i think this is the earliest post ive done. its not too early though...
well, just wanted to say that i didnt die. (yet...) jus kidding. nope i didnt die. but i kinda felt like i did for a while.
today is a pretty full day. crazy. oh well, i kinda like the crazyness. (as long as my mom isnt stressed) we first are going to lompoc to do sewing at my moms friends house. then im meeting a friend at starbucks, from there i have a soccer game. then last but not least to the wrights. i doesnt sound crazy. but each thing is an hour or more, so when im done with one, its about time for the other.
well, thats kinda it.

first day...

hey hey... i finally had my first day at the barn. it was pretty amazing. i think it would be a cool trade just to have if ever i needed to use it... while i was there, i painted my moms tea hutch. then detailed it... so when i first painted it, i painted it a deep red color. then i put a layer of charcole grey. then- i took a paint scraper and scraped all the edges and corners, to give it an older more antique look. yes, i must say... it turned out pretty amazing. it looks kinda pirate-ish... i also started building a picture frame. its not even close to done. but- oh well. it will get there.

~Thailand~

hey everyone, my friend just got back from thailand... and she got a staph infection while in one of the hospitals. (most likely.) so please pray for her. and my parents and i are thinking that it might be a possibility that i could go back to thailand with her when she goes next. which, would be next september. it would be a mission tripo. so, i would only go for a month or so but, shes planning on going permenetly. i have a good year left but- to go on a missins trip there would be hard. because you pretty much are out i the boonies. and its considered impolite not eat what ever they set infront of you. which means rice, leaves, bugs, and monkey poo. yes monkey poo. im a little worried about the whole monkey poo idea. i mean a person could get sick because of that. and, there are desieses there, just like here but- a whole great deal worse. seeing as the karen have limited medical access, so things arent taken care of as they should be. so please pray for her full recovery so that she could go serve, and that God would make clear whether or not this is a place that he would want me to go serve.

*yours for the taking*

i currently have seven cats. five of which are kittens, who- are up for adoption. yes, and it looks like i cant even keep one. sad thing. i think i have to give my two favorites, Isabella and Jack. oh! they all have names but- you are welcome to rename them, of course. just wanted to let you all know that cuz, the person i adopted diana from, wanted me to keep her name. i think it used to be star or something cheesy like that. oh well. (haha, she actually has about three or four names... everyone has a nick name for her.)
so yes, anyways, please let me know if you want one... they are house trained, and are at the precise age to be taken.... for the sake of my parents, let me know as soon as you can.

a quote...

hey everyone, i just wanted to post a quote, that was in one of my history books...

"We should always seek for truth and knowledge,
but we should remember that knowledge and wisdom are of worth,
only if we let our lives be governed by them."

~ Cardinal Nicholas of Cusa

i would love to say more but- i have a library worth of school work to do....

september 15th...

well, tomorrow is carter's birthday. he will be a whole three years old. oh man, i cant believe it. three years ago, on september 15th, i took my siblings out to the play room that was seprate from our house.... eating cherios and apple sause for meals and watching lord of the rings... patiently waiting for him to finally be here... and he came.
let me tell you, carter has put up with a lot these few short years, in his life so far. he has already done some crazy stunts. (becoming a dare devil at an early age.) haha.... well, its kinda sad really. i can remeber this one time when he was around nine months old and my uncle thought it would be fun to push him, in his push car, down the stairs leading to the lower area of the acre and a half we lived on. despite the fact that i told him that we would be better off, it this just didnt happen, he decided to not pay heed to my caution. so he, starts decending down, the stairs, when he suddenly lost his footing and fell forward... giving carters little car, a very nice push... carter went flying down the stairs, with me not too far in toe, and did a flip... ladding upside down. yes, if it werent for the little seat belt holding him in.... he would have died, or at least been pretty significantly injured. to say the least, my uncle almost died that day too. (we later found my uncle hiding in a tree. no lie.) then of course i was a little bit of a help in the developing of his dare devilness... i enjoyied, pushing him all around yard at full speed, in yet again his little red push car. mind you, he enjoied it just as much as i did. course, my mom wasnt too thrilled.... basiclly, in these three years, he has encountered many more crazy stunts like these. given the exception of one... in just a sightly different situation. which my mom also wanted to kill someone for... months after his second birthday, a friend of mine asked him if he would like his head to be farted on... to which, my inocent two year old brother replied," sure!" haha, ya. and carters head was farted on. after which he said," oh no! you poopied!" haha.... ya, that person doesnt know how closely life would have ended. (i dont think my mom would have seriously killed my friend... thats just what she said...)
anyways, enough with memeories... tomorrow, for his birthday, carter wants to go to the muh-zoo. (ya, he hasnt quite gotten the hang of the word 'zoo' yet.) so, hes excited. i think we all are. none of us have been to the santa barbra zoo yet. so, yes... a day at the zoo. which carter swears he came from... again, no lie.

life is good....

well, my first day of crazy school classes is almost over... and i have to tell you, it wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be. i had my first class of physics today.... and my first class of speech and debate. i think this debate class is going to be way better, and a lot more less stressful. no one day, write a whole speech thing. yay... then to top the day off, i finished with a starbucks.... mmm, a misto, with a shot of toffee nut. oh man was it good, as always.... ive gone to bucks so much that when i walk in they say,"the usual?" (and-i get a free drink every now and then.)

oh, after physics today, one of the guys kept asking questions about wildwood. cause i havent seen him for a while... and he just kept saying," tell me more, tell me more..." haha... i wanted to die of laughter. it came to a point where, i had to tell him, that i really had nothing further to say... even then he was convinced there was more... he just kept on saying, "tell me more." so, i ended up just rambling on a few funny things that happened... let me tell you, if his ride hadnt said," its time to leave...." i guarantee that i would have been doing a lot of rambling. i didnt mind it that much... it brought back some good memories...

well, my sabbatical has so far turned out for the better. i thought id be bored. but- i really have plenty to do... even though a lot of the of the stuff i do, is stuff im required to do, i still enjoy it. (yes even school, to a degree.) oh! i start my job at the barn tomorrow morning, im so excited... and to top it off, ive even gotten a few answers to a few prayers... everything has become more enjoyable.... life- is good.

...my sabbatical....

well, my parents and i have been talking... and we've decided that i need a sabbatical from a few things.... so, there will be a lot of things that i will disappear from. lol! i think, i'm going to be working at the barn a few times a week. and i'll be working at the home-less shelter on tuesdays. then there are various other things that i'll be dabbling in. (which are at the moment being looked into. ) not to mention, i have a ton of school to do...
im pretty excited about the first two listed... i've been wanting to go work at the barn for the last year or so... pretty much ever since i went there to check it out, on last years fourth of july... yet again, another hobbie... then, working at the home-less shelter... i think will be a good thing over all. although, i cant really describe what i think about that, completely.... i think that i would also like to find a plant nursery to work at... (just so you all know, the barn is where my cousin and brother made their picture frames... but there are a great many other things that i can make there.)

haha, i have currently also picked up the hobbie of making my own paper and journals... though right now the only thing i've been able to do with that, is the paper. (which im also still working out all the tools that i need for it.) i need to get a little better at it before i start making journals.