Happy List For Jordie Lindsey

1. Finding a Bible verse that makes my heart leap

2. The smiling faces of my siblings

3. My sketchbook, filled with ideas, inspirational images, and quotes

4. The morning fog, accompanied with a warm drink

5. Successfully, baking something wonderful from scratch

6. Goosebumps of excitement that tickle my arm

7.  My school's art studio

8. Creating mixed media art

9. Thick, (sometimes loose) sweaters for fall and winter

(usually Adam's)

10. Feathers and Sea Shells

11. Furry, purring, cuddly kitties in my lap

12. The feeling of warmth, inside my clothes or under my covers,

on a day or night that's brisk 

13. Letters from loved ones
14. My quiet time with the Lord
15. Encouraging my fellow sisters and brothers in Christ
16. Day dreaming
17. The feeling that rises in my chest when I hold a paint brush in my hand
18. Old Movies
19. Laughing until I can't talk, but try to talk anyways
20. Unexpected moments with a friend or family member, when they
walk into my heart for just a moment and
lift me up, 
when I was denying the presence down trodden spirit.
(which humbles me, as I think there is a touch of pride in my heart
when I seek deny my down cast heart, so as to appear that
I have myself in order)

Abandon Expectations

I feel choked.

Art is not wanting to happen for me,

and I feel devistated

and well just plain ol' sad. 

I made yesterday my ALL day art day,

to work on my next project for 

art class. Nothing was 

what I had envisioned, and not

what I desperately wanted to do! 

I prayed while I shaded,

painted, sanded,

ripped, and rubber cemented. 

Somehow, God is showing me something through this.

I don't know what it is yet.

Maybe, to abandon

expectations of my self, 

grade wise.

I confess that as I was buried in every

art supply that I own,

I was thinking about what would get me a 

good grade, and not the 

art itself. 

Sad.

Hopefully, after I drop these expectations,

I will do better.

I need Inspiration.