tomorrow...

wow, today has been a confusing day. everything has been up in the air. it looks like im going back to Santa Maria tomorrow. so i have plenty to keep me busy until then. what with all the packing and double checking... it could take a while.
i went soccer shopping today with my dad today. it was my adventure for the day. lets just say we went pretty much all over the map. ive discovered that sports stores dont really have womens soccer shoes. in fact not even the womens sports store carried them. ha, which is an oxy moron. but- in the end i bought what i could and ordered the shoes... haha... even then the shoes that i ordered were mens soccer shoes. i like them though. they less like soccer shoes than most. if that makes any sense.
i need some help jordie. im pretty stuck on my story. (see i mentioned you.) im not sure if you remember or not, but- its just after the part where i described the dream. i almost had something when... all was lost. i feel pretty dumb. the boy nextdoor was telling me what was wrong with my story. and somewhat my drawings as well... just as well, im going to keep on going in the direction i was headed. i have a story line (for once) and i sticking to it.

just some fun pictures...

driveways and parkways...

im back. and im sick. im hardly ever sick, and yet im sick. well, hopefully it wont last long... you know, ive been a little on the emo side and not very positive, in my recent posts. and, im sorry. i sound so... i dunno... not like myself. im feeling more myself than ever again. so im sure that will be good news to you all. san diego was a fun trip. i havent been to sea world for a while. oh, the roller coaster was more of a combination of a roller coaster and a water ride. to say the least, we were all pretty wet. but, we were nice and cool for the rest of the trip. we also, while there, got to dine with shamu. yep, we had lunch with shamu. well, with shamu's cousin anyways. i dont remember what her name was.... it wasnt shamu though. haha... anyways, the day after thursday (shamu day), lori and i went out shopping. i finally found a good pair of jeans. i am excited... i havent really gotten to seriously wear them.
hm, im thinking of going for a swim. despite my non-feeling goodness. i most likely will... oh speaking of swimming. yestersday, pretty much everyone on our street was at our neighbor carry's house swimming, when out of no where... thunder started, then the lightning (we all fled from the pool), after that came rain and hail. yep, in 90 degree weather too. it was weird to be in the rain and not feel cold. it was hot and humid. it was pretty big hail too... i got hit in the head, and trust me when i say it didnt feel very good.
other than that... i went to church today, and worked in the fourth grade class. i came home and went straight to bed. i might go to the drive in with the neighbors, that depends on how i feel though. i hope i feel better by then.

i have a question... i keep thinking about... and i cant remember who asked me this... who ever it was, i give you credit, cause it still puzzles me.

"why do we drive on parkways, and park on driveways?" oh, i rememeber who asked this, my uncle chris... good times, good times. the other one was, " why is it called toothpaste, when we have more than one tooth." gotta love him.

going out fo town while being out of town...

well, the title pretty much is self explanitory... haha... im still at my dads. and everything is going pretty good. we're all just getting ready to go up (or down? i think its down.) to san diego... which means laundry. woo hoo. well not all of us are getting ready. my dad got his stuff packed this morning. he had good motovation though... he had to get packed if he wanted to go golfing. so, thats where he is now. i think we re all meeting up later... anyways, we're going out to san diego to vist family and go to sea world. (which just had roller coasters put in. yes!) but thats tomorrow. tonight we're just going to be with family, have dinner, and hang out. then the days after those two, are just going to be spent doing whatever. i think we'll be home on saturday. (home away from home.... haha... i really need to stop. so far ive managed to put in my blogs; behind on catching up, being out of town while being out of town, and home away from home. sorry if its annoying. its kinda annoying me...)
okay, so the last few days have felt really lonely. and i was thinking... i think i get carried away with being around so many people all the time. so when its just me, i get lonely too easy. i mean, im around people, but am doing my own thing some of the time. why am i not borde/lonely then? maybe its just hearing other people. i can fix that with music sometimes... but- its not always that easy. sometimes music doesnt quite cut it, in that area. hm... well, i have laundry and packing to do. not to metion that i got an invite to go some where, and sadly i have to go tell them that i cant make it. (i feel kinda bad.)

'oh bugga'

yes! i finally saw pirates 2! it was amazing... oh man, i wish i were still in the movie theater watching it. ill tell ya, the ending has left me hanging. ill be thinking about it for the next few days... and i know when the 3rd comes out... may 27th of next year. so, ill be looking forward to that one. anyways. i should go.
good night. hope everyone sleeps well.

...in the last half hour of my life...

haha... I just spent the last half hour or so reading all of my previous posts. And I will say its weird to see all of my attitudes and emotions. when im typing, at that specific moment, i really dont pay attention to all the; weird, quirky, insane, serious, depressing, overly excited things i say. (among other, definitions i could come up with. but- alas there are too many.) it only makes me admit my oddities or weirdness... which ever. they have become even more clearer than before. thats for sure.
its been hard trying to think of what else i could say. aside from the everyday things that come along. i guess i could talk a little about that. i think i found a church by the way. i wont really know until this sunday. hopefully, it will all work out. i bought a new pair of vans yesterday. on a count of the fact that i ripped my other pair at camp. im happy to say that the old pair is still wearable... but- well, the hole will only get bigger if i wear them every day like i have been.

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well, life here in so cal has been hot. seriously. ive been swimming everyday so far. but- im getting used to the heat.
anyways... ive been able to get some school done here. which is good. that way, by the end of this month ill have hopefully gotten somewhere in it. and- im not going to lie... i was slacking off. a little. but- now im trying to get back on track. so...
man... its hard to get sleep here. i have no idea why. im awake really late every night, or morning... two days ago i didnt get to sleep until four in the morning. ya. then i got up at nine... it was a little better last night. but- not by much.
nothing really exciting has happened. so theres not too much to say. sorry about that.

the so cal ups and downs....

well... i missed the opening night of pirates 2. but- if i dont think about it, its really not that bad. the reason i missed it is because im officially out of town for the rest of the month. on account of my visiting my padre. i guess this means that ill be missing the next magic mountain trip too. hu... go figure. oh well, if i dont dwell on it then it wont be so bad.
oh, i could use some prayer in the church area. cause usually when im down here, i just dont and cant go to church. but- i think this year is going to be different. its hard to just not go to church. i mean before, i was a lot younger. and i knew there God.... it was just that my heart wasnt completely longing to learn and grow in Him. now that i truly am, i really want to be able to go to church down here. also, none of my southern family are Christians. so it would be a good ministry. so please pray that i would find a church=)

this week, today, and days to come...

yes! i dont mean to complain. but- man am i glad that the cub scout day camp is over. i hope im not signed up to work there next year. ill have to keep a good eye and ear out for that one. the weird thing is, is that last year, wasnt nearly as bad or as crazy. hm....
we might go see superman at the drive-in tonight. ive heard that it was really good. i think that this will be my third time going to the drive-in... most people find that sad. but- i dont think its all that sad. i mean ya, i like the drive in but... i still have plenty of time to go, before i die. well, at least as of now i do... you can never know. so i cant be too sure about the whole''plenty of time" thing.
well, my uncle and cousin are up for the fourth. im pretty excited for that. i dont think that we have anything completely set... as far as what we re going to do on the fourth. we might go to the beach and have a bon fire. i hope we do. cause the other option would be to go to shell beach, hang out at the park until the fire works start... then watch the fire works. i think we would be able to see the fire works from avila beach, if we do the bon fire... i hope you all have a good fourth of july. good bye for now.