...my sabbatical....

well, my parents and i have been talking... and we've decided that i need a sabbatical from a few things.... so, there will be a lot of things that i will disappear from. lol! i think, i'm going to be working at the barn a few times a week. and i'll be working at the home-less shelter on tuesdays. then there are various other things that i'll be dabbling in. (which are at the moment being looked into. ) not to mention, i have a ton of school to do...
im pretty excited about the first two listed... i've been wanting to go work at the barn for the last year or so... pretty much ever since i went there to check it out, on last years fourth of july... yet again, another hobbie... then, working at the home-less shelter... i think will be a good thing over all. although, i cant really describe what i think about that, completely.... i think that i would also like to find a plant nursery to work at... (just so you all know, the barn is where my cousin and brother made their picture frames... but there are a great many other things that i can make there.)

haha, i have currently also picked up the hobbie of making my own paper and journals... though right now the only thing i've been able to do with that, is the paper. (which im also still working out all the tools that i need for it.) i need to get a little better at it before i start making journals.

whale watching trip...

Ben's Barn.....

the boys made these picture frames at ben's workshop/barn.... (jacob, left) (brody, right) well, done lil' bros....

...non-survival, and urgent care...

well, ive decided that this year is going to be a non-survival year. i just found out that i already have a class tomorrow at 9:30 a.m. i have now come to the reality of, the quantity of crazy classes and soccer games i have... and i have to say," boy did i really add to the load on my plate...." i can only hope that somehow, through everything, that i will make it through to be, in the end, alive. (even if my life is only an inch of a thread long. haha...) but- its all going to be worth it... i think. to be able to graduate early. even if its only by one year...
haha... i spent almost three hours in urgent care today... missing soccer practice during it... all because of a foot injury. oh man... i was sad. cause i really need the practice. seriously. but- it looks like its all in my favor. nothing too life threatening. haha...
dean is going out of town again... for, i have no idea how long. and so once again ill be computer-less. (out of town for work. again.)
uh... ive bee trying to post some pictures on here. and the image thing wont work. has anyone else had that problem? or is it just my computer? ya, its most likely my computer.
well, good night to you all. i should really go. i have an early start tomorrow... so long.

survival...

hey everyone... got back from camp today... it was pretty fun. as usual. i have to say that our youth room, has pretty amazing activities... and you always seem to benefit from what you learn in Christ at all of the camps. although- to be fair, i have to give the camps credit. but- seeing that our youth room organizes our trips, the staff and james deserve a pat on the back... oh man, we had some pretty amazing adventures. haha... kaleb and jen were so funny at the talent show. i laughed until my sides ached... zach was pretty funny too... he can lip sink pretty crazy. but- i think my most favorite parts were: the great race, our 'Y' time, and just being with everyone. so it was a good weekend. oh, when we were up there... a few of us went on a little hike to the falls. i think that that place was amazingly beautiful. aw, man its times like those that make me want to just praise God and thank Him for all that he blessed us with. sometimes its just the simple things that give the most pleasure.
well, my uncle is here.... im not sure how longs hes staying. not much longer i imagine. hes already been up here since saturday- i think. and he has work. but, you can never tell, family can be pretty unpredictable. haha... i love him, hes so fun to be around... him and i have had some pretty good times; on the the road just being silly and random. all our little adventures...
oh man you guys... i could use some prayer with school. its going to be a pretty crazy next two years. as im still planning on graduating a year early... please just pray that i would stay motovated and that i would get through it all alive. (cause right now, to me, my chance of survival seems very slim.)

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well, ill be pretty much computer-less the next few days... unless, i perchance, happen to go to a friends house... in which case they would most likely have one... i hope for the best in this area... (not that ill have a whole lot of time to get on... things now become crazy...)at least as far as school and various other activities...
camp will be a good break... im soo excited for it. i havent been to this one yet.
i have to say that this year has been the first time for all my camps. so, its all pretty exciting. (though, ive heard of some interesting games at kickback.) but- i really have a vague idea of this camp. whereas the others ive had more insight...
haha... oh man... im stuck awake again. and i have to get up early too. oh what to do, what to do? there isnt much to do. at least at this hour in the night. everyone else is sleeping. well, my mom isnt. but- shes pretty much getting in bed. soo, just me and this laptop.

sitting up late

hey guys... well, i cant sleep. i dont feel the least bit tired. but- its my fault... i had a monster too late. so, im currently stuck awake, even though i really want to be sleeping... especially since, we have church tomorrow... man, im retated. i told myself not to have that monster... but- i went against my better judgement. sigh* well, not much i can say or do.
im thinking of watching a movie... hm... thatll make me tired.
well, sorry about this post.... just the ramblings of a person whos really tired.... but just doesnt know it yet....

a verse...

hey guys hows i going? good, i hope. well, i found this verse from a friend of mine and it really caught me, so i wanted to share it with you all...

'Finally ,brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, watever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.'

Phil. 4:8

i thought it was amazing. and i keep thinking about how i always want to remember it. its kinda like, when ever im doing or around something that has one of the descriptions above, i want to be able to go over this verse....... i love the way God makes certain things stand out to you... He is so amazing and good...

i would love to talk more but- alas, i have a babysitting job to do. and have to leave for it in only a few minutes. so sorry for not commenting to those of you who reicently commented me. i will, hopefully by tomorrow...

...pretty much just everything...

hey guys... hows it all going? hope everyones good. well, hmmm, trying to make up for lost posts is going to be fun. just kidding... i wont type that much. it would be too crazy.
i found out who my coach is for soccer. mr. way... im glad... he seems like a pretty cool coach. ive also gotten the info. that our soccer starts today. we'll see if its true or false. i hope its true. despite the fact that im really sore from playing soccer at church last night. a bunch of us stayed after the organized games, and kept on playing. (i think we stopped around 11:30 p.m.) i was the only girl for a while... so, to say the least, i got pummeled a few times. but- thats just how soccer works. all there is to do, is get back up and keep playing. so it was an exciting night. man, the ways and all the people related to them are amazing soccer players... i really dont know all there names, sad to say... (kaleb you are amazing.)
well, the week alone went well. we pretty much were just hanging around the house, doing school work, keeping up on house work (thats always fun), and skateboarding pretty much everywhere. but- after a while i think we got borde of doing the same things over and over again... haha... my mom wanted us to go on a whale watching trip, in morro bay. and let me tell you. things were not good. i was sick within ten minutes... it was bad. i even took some motion sick medicine. (later ill post some of the pictures.) on the boat , i was thinking about how hard it would be for me to be a pirate. then again, it would be a ship, and not a little boat.... so we wouldnt get tossed around as much. haha... just a random thought.
well, i had better be going.

alone... wish i had a car.

hey guys... hows everything going? good with everyone i hope. welll, here it is... my whole family is going down to so cal. (again.) and cauze i just got home from being there... i really dont want to go down. so ill be home alone for four or five days. who knows, maybe more. we're never sure when we go down there. or we go down thinking of the day we want to come back. but- we dont get until two or three days after that. haha... an expected twist fate... anyways, i think thatll be exciting. but if i do that, i have to have a place to sleep every night.... so pray and cross your fingers that i can get that worked out. i have one day. i would have had more time but- i didnt know everyone was leaving on mon. until just yesterday. (haha... another thing that always happens.) well, talk to you all later...

all of the above...

wow, its been a while since my last post... sorry bout that. well, it seem as though im swamped. school work is crazy, there are things coming up that i really dont want to do, (meaning another car trip), my mom has been pretty sick. (so please prey for her... ) then during the midst of all this ive put upon myself the burden of maintaining the garden areas. why? no idea. it sounded like fun. but now, ive made it a pressing matter. it could still be fun.... oh and another camp is coming up and somehow, i need to find a quick way of earning a little money. (easier said than done. haha...)
i heard something in church yesterday... that really caught my attenion. and it was," that no matter what your doing do it for God." so i got to thinking about my recent schedual, and how i was, trying, to do it out of responsibility and just as something that had to be done. i thought it would be a whole lot better if i did everything for Him. so in a lot of ways, today has been better than the last few. i wasnt as pressed. or worried. ahhh, God is amazing.... somehow, the simpler blessings can mean the most...

tomorrow...

wow, today has been a confusing day. everything has been up in the air. it looks like im going back to Santa Maria tomorrow. so i have plenty to keep me busy until then. what with all the packing and double checking... it could take a while.
i went soccer shopping today with my dad today. it was my adventure for the day. lets just say we went pretty much all over the map. ive discovered that sports stores dont really have womens soccer shoes. in fact not even the womens sports store carried them. ha, which is an oxy moron. but- in the end i bought what i could and ordered the shoes... haha... even then the shoes that i ordered were mens soccer shoes. i like them though. they less like soccer shoes than most. if that makes any sense.
i need some help jordie. im pretty stuck on my story. (see i mentioned you.) im not sure if you remember or not, but- its just after the part where i described the dream. i almost had something when... all was lost. i feel pretty dumb. the boy nextdoor was telling me what was wrong with my story. and somewhat my drawings as well... just as well, im going to keep on going in the direction i was headed. i have a story line (for once) and i sticking to it.

just some fun pictures...

driveways and parkways...

im back. and im sick. im hardly ever sick, and yet im sick. well, hopefully it wont last long... you know, ive been a little on the emo side and not very positive, in my recent posts. and, im sorry. i sound so... i dunno... not like myself. im feeling more myself than ever again. so im sure that will be good news to you all. san diego was a fun trip. i havent been to sea world for a while. oh, the roller coaster was more of a combination of a roller coaster and a water ride. to say the least, we were all pretty wet. but, we were nice and cool for the rest of the trip. we also, while there, got to dine with shamu. yep, we had lunch with shamu. well, with shamu's cousin anyways. i dont remember what her name was.... it wasnt shamu though. haha... anyways, the day after thursday (shamu day), lori and i went out shopping. i finally found a good pair of jeans. i am excited... i havent really gotten to seriously wear them.
hm, im thinking of going for a swim. despite my non-feeling goodness. i most likely will... oh speaking of swimming. yestersday, pretty much everyone on our street was at our neighbor carry's house swimming, when out of no where... thunder started, then the lightning (we all fled from the pool), after that came rain and hail. yep, in 90 degree weather too. it was weird to be in the rain and not feel cold. it was hot and humid. it was pretty big hail too... i got hit in the head, and trust me when i say it didnt feel very good.
other than that... i went to church today, and worked in the fourth grade class. i came home and went straight to bed. i might go to the drive in with the neighbors, that depends on how i feel though. i hope i feel better by then.

i have a question... i keep thinking about... and i cant remember who asked me this... who ever it was, i give you credit, cause it still puzzles me.

"why do we drive on parkways, and park on driveways?" oh, i rememeber who asked this, my uncle chris... good times, good times. the other one was, " why is it called toothpaste, when we have more than one tooth." gotta love him.

going out fo town while being out of town...

well, the title pretty much is self explanitory... haha... im still at my dads. and everything is going pretty good. we're all just getting ready to go up (or down? i think its down.) to san diego... which means laundry. woo hoo. well not all of us are getting ready. my dad got his stuff packed this morning. he had good motovation though... he had to get packed if he wanted to go golfing. so, thats where he is now. i think we re all meeting up later... anyways, we're going out to san diego to vist family and go to sea world. (which just had roller coasters put in. yes!) but thats tomorrow. tonight we're just going to be with family, have dinner, and hang out. then the days after those two, are just going to be spent doing whatever. i think we'll be home on saturday. (home away from home.... haha... i really need to stop. so far ive managed to put in my blogs; behind on catching up, being out of town while being out of town, and home away from home. sorry if its annoying. its kinda annoying me...)
okay, so the last few days have felt really lonely. and i was thinking... i think i get carried away with being around so many people all the time. so when its just me, i get lonely too easy. i mean, im around people, but am doing my own thing some of the time. why am i not borde/lonely then? maybe its just hearing other people. i can fix that with music sometimes... but- its not always that easy. sometimes music doesnt quite cut it, in that area. hm... well, i have laundry and packing to do. not to metion that i got an invite to go some where, and sadly i have to go tell them that i cant make it. (i feel kinda bad.)

'oh bugga'

yes! i finally saw pirates 2! it was amazing... oh man, i wish i were still in the movie theater watching it. ill tell ya, the ending has left me hanging. ill be thinking about it for the next few days... and i know when the 3rd comes out... may 27th of next year. so, ill be looking forward to that one. anyways. i should go.
good night. hope everyone sleeps well.

...in the last half hour of my life...

haha... I just spent the last half hour or so reading all of my previous posts. And I will say its weird to see all of my attitudes and emotions. when im typing, at that specific moment, i really dont pay attention to all the; weird, quirky, insane, serious, depressing, overly excited things i say. (among other, definitions i could come up with. but- alas there are too many.) it only makes me admit my oddities or weirdness... which ever. they have become even more clearer than before. thats for sure.
its been hard trying to think of what else i could say. aside from the everyday things that come along. i guess i could talk a little about that. i think i found a church by the way. i wont really know until this sunday. hopefully, it will all work out. i bought a new pair of vans yesterday. on a count of the fact that i ripped my other pair at camp. im happy to say that the old pair is still wearable... but- well, the hole will only get bigger if i wear them every day like i have been.

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well, life here in so cal has been hot. seriously. ive been swimming everyday so far. but- im getting used to the heat.
anyways... ive been able to get some school done here. which is good. that way, by the end of this month ill have hopefully gotten somewhere in it. and- im not going to lie... i was slacking off. a little. but- now im trying to get back on track. so...
man... its hard to get sleep here. i have no idea why. im awake really late every night, or morning... two days ago i didnt get to sleep until four in the morning. ya. then i got up at nine... it was a little better last night. but- not by much.
nothing really exciting has happened. so theres not too much to say. sorry about that.

the so cal ups and downs....

well... i missed the opening night of pirates 2. but- if i dont think about it, its really not that bad. the reason i missed it is because im officially out of town for the rest of the month. on account of my visiting my padre. i guess this means that ill be missing the next magic mountain trip too. hu... go figure. oh well, if i dont dwell on it then it wont be so bad.
oh, i could use some prayer in the church area. cause usually when im down here, i just dont and cant go to church. but- i think this year is going to be different. its hard to just not go to church. i mean before, i was a lot younger. and i knew there God.... it was just that my heart wasnt completely longing to learn and grow in Him. now that i truly am, i really want to be able to go to church down here. also, none of my southern family are Christians. so it would be a good ministry. so please pray that i would find a church=)

this week, today, and days to come...

yes! i dont mean to complain. but- man am i glad that the cub scout day camp is over. i hope im not signed up to work there next year. ill have to keep a good eye and ear out for that one. the weird thing is, is that last year, wasnt nearly as bad or as crazy. hm....
we might go see superman at the drive-in tonight. ive heard that it was really good. i think that this will be my third time going to the drive-in... most people find that sad. but- i dont think its all that sad. i mean ya, i like the drive in but... i still have plenty of time to go, before i die. well, at least as of now i do... you can never know. so i cant be too sure about the whole''plenty of time" thing.
well, my uncle and cousin are up for the fourth. im pretty excited for that. i dont think that we have anything completely set... as far as what we re going to do on the fourth. we might go to the beach and have a bon fire. i hope we do. cause the other option would be to go to shell beach, hang out at the park until the fire works start... then watch the fire works. i think we would be able to see the fire works from avila beach, if we do the bon fire... i hope you all have a good fourth of july. good bye for now.