Wonderings and Wanderings

this morning i woke up and realized how blessed i am. i knew i was blessed, but today i woke up and really looked at it. there are so many people in my life that i love so dearly. i have such a wonderful family, that i wouldnt trade for anything. i have friends that i love like family and consider them to be so. they are family not just in this life, but spiritually as well. i want to tell you all how much i love you and care for you. i thank God that He saw fit to place you all in my life.

you dont keep every friend and acquaintance that you come across. though a person may be a friend for a while, they dont always stay. as i look back at all the faces that have come and gone, i think of the things i learned or the ways that i was blessed through knowing them. even though they are no longer there in my everyday life, i still thank God for having them pass through. even the painful things that came along with the coming and going of people, i thank Him for. because i know that He brought a purpose that stretched me through it.

today is elle's birthday. she is nine years old today. she has requested what most of us request for dinner on our birthdays, chicken upside down cornbread:) well its either that or sushi:) i am so excited to give noelle her gifts. i love it! holly is sitting in my lap right now. lately she has been sitting a little on her own. she isnt using my stomach as a prop or my arms that reach past her to the keyboard. she is getting bigger!! she keeps bending down and eating her toes. so sweet:) i am thinking of the day that she turns nine. oh my word! that is so far away! i wonder where we all will be in our lives then...

today i feel like i dont know what to do with myself. there are so many things that i would love to do: paint, write, play piano or guitar, surf, dance, read... and yet the consistent beckoning of school is keeping me away from such pleasures. so i feel torn. between both pleasure and duty.