my heart beat so hard, i think i cracked a rib

wow. i literaly just woke up (7:34am). i had a scary dream. ive never had a dream like this before.

i woke up and my heart felt like it was pounding against my rib cage (and for a few mintutes, that was the only sound i could her) and i was breathing fast and deep... took me a minute to calm down. even then my heart was still going crazy.

the beginning of my dream was really sad. i cried a lot. so did a few other people. it was horrible. i was crying because i felt like a horrible person!. the others were cryng because of me. all i wanted to do was fix it and make it better. i felt like i had no power to do so.

the next section of my dream everything was happy. everyone was happy. things seemed better for the most part.

after things were getting better, we went to meet some people at the beach. something happened though... my mom and i were driving seprate cars, i was in the volvo with jake, noelle, and carter. mom was in one of our other two cars, alone. i think her car broke down (or disappeared). we were driving on opposite sides of the freeway. one of those crazy bridges that lift you, what feels like, 3hundred thousdand feet from the gravel floor. we were on one of those. except different ones. so we were like half a mile apart on one of those things. so i was stopped on the other side, and she on the other.

a huge black guy in a scratchy, wool sweater and jeans was dropped off right infront of my car. all the kids had gotten out and i had been trying to keep them from getting run over and back in the car again. the guy came up to me and grabbed me. i screamed, asking him what he was doing and why. he told me it was very important. i then asked him what he wanted. all he said was he wanted a red bag. however, i didnt have a red bag. i had no idea what he wanting to do now that i had told him that. either he didnt believe me, or he didnt care. he slammed me to the gravel floor. all my sibs stood helpless. cept for jake who was kicking the man halfheartedly with an odd expression on his face. the whole time this was going i kept thinking, this cant be happening. i told myself to pull together and kick him or punch him in the throat (like i had been taught). in the end i found that i couldnt. he had a hold on me that felt like i had no way to defend myself. an arm came loose and i would swing at him. my mom was helpless on the other side. i figured she was calling the cops. in the end i woke up and never found out if i made it. its wierd, kind of remember a red bag in the beginning or middle of my dream...

hope i didnt bore you...

talk to you all later. i have to get ready to go to the beach....

laters

before and after

Before:


AFTER!




nevermind my face. its still funny. but my hair is way way better!

Mother's Day and Such...

im so tired today. ive been tired a lot. i havent been sleeping all that well. i slept better last night but then i went to bed too late and got up too early. alas, im still tired. i slept so hard last night too!!! geeze. w/e

i got to see jordie friday and saturday... i went over to their house for maddies birthday party, then she came over to my house to spend the night. it was so amazing to see her! its been like forever and a day since i last saw her. i think it was at the nutcracker performance. and even then i only saw her for a short time. it was fun=)

so yesterday, from like 10:30a.m. i was at pismo. we went surfing in the morning and then we walked around for a while. the waves were really blown out... still, we had fun. for a while dean and i paddled out past the break and just sat out there. jake tried to get out there, however, he ended up just messing around on his board. hehe=) short legs, short arms, short... well, just short=P i dont think that we are going tomorrow. we usually go on mondays but, i dont know if we will. maybe later in the week.

mothers day was pretty good. well, i had fun. my grandma drove up. its awesome to have her here. she went to the beach with us yesterday too. she was gonna try to surf wit htme but then chickened out. haha! it was so lame. ill get her out next time. er, well, she said that she would next time. who knows if she really will. she is afraid that a shark is going to get her. ( never mind that is too shallow where we surf.... way to shallow. she is convinced). anyway, off subject. grandma and i took the volvo to church so that we could go pick up a few things for my mom. after church, i drove her around town... starbucks, the mall, albertsons.... then home for an amazing dinner. i think that both my mom and grandma had a good mothers day. i hope they did!

im so excited!! im going to go get my hair fixed on tuesday! its way to grown out and looks horrible. i really am gonna keep it short for a while. maybe al ong while. i was thinking evem a new style. i just dont know what style. ill prolly just keep the same style...

good night

Saturday's Surfing Pics

noobie

okay, i am seriously excited right now. call me a noobie. i know i am. and i love it! i caught quite a few waves today. stood up and all. yup. im pretty happy with that right now. i think ill go again this weekend. maybe, during the week. who knows. i need to check the weather. my arm dislocated twice. oh man. the shock and pain. i wish that could be fixed. im sure there is a way. like quite using it for a while. psh ya. thas gonna happen. the same thing happened the other ten times. im always doing something that massivly involves my arms: ballet, surfing, falling on it in soccer (even though i dont do that anymore), vaccuming, other cleaning stuff. lol! okay its not that much. it feels like it though. its gonna be so sore tomorrow.

we ate at longboards today after surfing. it was so gewd! i like it better than splash. i think i got the hawaiian burger... so good.

man the kittens are getting so big! pretty soon, they will be going to homes=( i wish they didnt have too. they are all so cute! (arent they always though....) if i looked at it that way, we would be infested with cats.

other than that not much. school and chores. then piano and guitar. yuppers, thats it.

went surfing

well, i went surfing for the first time since like 9th or 8th grade. it was awesome! i really hope i dont suck for long and will be able to ride soon. man! just sitting on the board without putting your hands on it to steady yourself, is kinna hard. the waves were really flat so- it wasnt easy to catch a wave. there werent many other surfers out. the ones that were out, werent catching waves either. still, i had a lot of fun and am really tired. haha! i seriously lack the upper body strength. i got my feet on the board once, then fell. all the other times, my arms wouldnt paddle strong or hard enough to catch another one. that and the waves werent really good anyway.

thats pretty much all that we did today.

everyone else was up on the beach chillin. once, nathan and i got really far over, so my mom and dean walked over to where we were and waited there till we noticed. i think cilla and jake were in the water most of the time too. i think we are all going again this next week. so that will be fosheezy.

ill talk to you all laters.

peace

a look into another day in time

hello all,

we are home from socal now. we have been for a few days. a lot has gone on and yet, not that much has gone on.

lets see... yesterday we went to prissys 10th birthday party. we hung out there for a bit. while we were there, nathan and i planned a surfing trip... i think we are going this saturday. he is gonna teach me to surf. its my goal to learn before we move. so if we ever come and visit, or are anywhere there is surf, i can=)i wanted to learn a long time ago.. but somehow- that never panned out.

our cousin brea was coming up to stay with us for a few days (starting yesterday). so by the time we were done with prissys birthday party, she was at our house. she had planned to stay for a few days but had to leave, unexpectedly, today.

now is where today comes into type. today was moms day to teach jakes science co-op. so for a while in the morning we cleaned house and got ready for guests. the co-op started and ended. i even did the experiment. haha! i have a 13 1/2 (i think they measured it in cups?? not sure) lung capacity. woop woop for me=P i dont know where that is on the normal lung capacity rate, er level... something like that.

pretty much as soon as the co-op was over, brea left. it was sad. only a 24 hr stay. we didnt even get to do anything fun!

i finished up school for the day... after i had finished that, i had planned on reading the book i borrowed from nathan, 'House,' but- i havent yet. the book is really good so far. totally something i have never read before. it was written by frank peretti and ted decker. usually not my style of book. however, it is gewd.

currently, my uncle chris just got here like 30 an hour ago. he has some work in pismo tomorrow. so hes gonna stay with us for the night (as far as i know). he might be staying longer. i havent totally been downloaded yet=)

singin' the song

i love this picture! i took it on the way home from my grandmas house. its where Avila and Shell beach meet.

this is a weird barn style gas station, again, on the way home from my grandmas. i think in Kettleman city.


we are here in socal right now. just visiting family and friends. we even brought mommy cat and the kittens with us, cuz we would be gone so long... no clue when we are going home. haha!

i have a few things that need prayer for... my uncle is having a hard time. really really hard time. my mom is pregnant, and we would all love to have prayer for her! as all my friends know our history in that area, please pray for her and baby. they are both doing fine right now! which is a blessing... and if you all could pray for me personally... i would be so thankful to you all!

home post

this is my first offical post from home. even though i have been home for almost a full month. yes, time and life have kept me busy. there was some fun in the middle=)
ive just been home mostly. working on school, helping around the house (entailing: cooking, cleaning, babysitting... and other house works), and spent some time with some friends this last weekend. it was pretty awesomely fun. we just hung out together. at one point carrisa and i went to starbucks and the moms and three of the kids went to the homeschool book fair. a little later, carissa, nathan, and myself went to the homeschool fair to see what was going on with our family there. there was a lot of procrastination getting that far in decisions of what to do=) while we were there i got see carl and a few other friends! so that was pretty cool. in the end, we all (thirteen al together) ended up at the Anders having dinner and talking for a long while! nathan and i messed around on the guitars a bit then a few of us sat on the pourch talking. haha! it was eleven at night before we went home! it didnt even feel like eleven at night. it was so weird.

other than that, i havent been busy with much. i have, however, been working on writing more songs. i eventually want to record them... but that might take a while. i have finished two song on the piano. they need lyrics and guitar added still. annddd there are two still in the works, on the piano.

oh! i was so excited about this! jon foreman has three of his new single albums out: spring, fall, and winter. summer will be coming out at some point. the songs are amazing! music and lyrics!

well, just wanted to give a shout out to everyone!

talk to you all later

in His love,

just because

well, im posting these really only so that i can save them cuz gmail isnt wanting to work. they are from someone elses camera:-D

jello

well, theses last few fays have been kind of amazing.

tuesday:
we worked till lunch then went over to the printers. it was so awesome to see all these things being printed! oh my word. i really have to add pictures this time.
after we went there, we went over to walmart and big lots. i got a vitamin water at walmart. they were one dollar! i havent seen them that cheap. it made me kind of happy=D and we played jello the whole ride home. which is amazing here, since we live out in the country, so the road are really curvey.
psalmody, amanda, and i

the moon. it looks cooler big. but- if you click it....



wednesday:
we finised another day of work! and caught up the whole company! yesss... so we have hardly anything to do. yesterday, was the lunar ecplipse. (sp?) hannah, lisa, amanda, and psalmody and i, stood out on the balcony and watched the moon and stars disapear. so so incredable. oh my. once the sky went dark, we all went inside and played pit. it was my first time playing, and let me tell you, it has become one of my favorite games. haha! its kind of a loud game. psalmody is gonna platt braide my hair one night. i think this weekend. im excited. i had that done when i was like 8, for summer one year.

today:
the day isnt over yet. its only lunch time. but- the day has started off amazingly! i got my package from my mom. and- she is pretty much amazing! she was amazing anyway. but- you know what i mean. AND since we caught up everything yesterday, we have seriously nothing to do today. haha! no joke.

well, il add on laters i think. i have to go eat.

trick doors

creepy window of the house

me in the house

actual picture from inside the house



hey hey!

i think i decided what my favorite jobs are here in the office. i like restocking, and orders. the copmuter stuff is cool too. its pretty chill. i just decided that those were my favorite. lol!

so all ive just been in the office and hanging with all the girls and kids. its been chill. which is nice since ive been sick.

i did the scariest thing ever today! well, im sure i could have done something more scary but- you know what i mean. okay, there is an abondoned house up the street. and well, i went in it today. i didnt go alone! i went with amanda. we went in together. it was so trippy. okay, so on the outside there are two front doors. one on either side of the house. but when we went in where the living room was, there were no doors in the corners, but a door in the middle! so so weird! so there are three false doors!! in one of the pictures i took, you can see like a line where the doors would have been; the two doors, that look like they lead inside from the outside... ya. and there is no visable line on the outside, for the one in the middle of the wall on the inside. so weird! after we were done, we kinna ran out. haha! cuz we noticed a hole in the ceiling, and it was scary.

more pictures

hello all! sorry for not posting about these picturess=) i was trying to upload more, but the computer wouldnt let me. so- the pictures of me are with the other amanda. we have matching beanies that hannah made. twinners=)
then theres the picture of the office, and the little heater that heats the office. or at least heats one side of the office. haha! uless we turn it up to like 100 degrees then the heat reaches the other side... mrs campbell usually turns it down to 63, no matter what heat we have it up to. we could have it at 65 and she would still turn it down. haha!

and,then,before,after...& the mystery smell.

so ive had a pretty busy day.... this morning, i finished up the thank you letters. they had been so backed up from previous months that it took me two days and a morning to finish them. then i answered the phones for a while, taking orders and fixing accounts. after that i moved on to doing pay pal, which is online orders. so i just print them out then package and mail them. i added the orders i had done to the "book", then i started squirrel mail. which is where i print out people with three or more kids under th age of 10, OR they have requested more than one magazine, OR they have a prayer request, OR all listed previous. if they dont have any of those i just write their name on a mailing lable, slide it in with a magazine, seal it, and mail it. also if the the requests are from outta country i have to look up the above rubies head quaters there, find their email, then forward the message to them. lol! wow, thats very detailed of me....

we may go over to vanges tonight. im not sure. lol! we shall see....

i think im getting sick again... not fun. see all four of us girls sleep in one room. as you saw in the pick a few posts ago.... so when one of us gets sick, we breathe in the diseased (dont think thats a word, so i just made it one) air. so when one gets sick, it tends to circulate. yay! hannah was just sick, and before that amanda and i, before that carrie was sick... so yes im sure you get the pattern. lol! AND nrs. campbell is sick.

okay so- in the office we kept getting whiffs of some disgusting smell. we looked through the cupboard where the smell was coming from,and couldnt find anything!!! so for a week and a half we just went on dealing with the gross smell. we just couldnt figure it out! then today, the smell got stronger, someone calls out my name, and i turn around to see lisa holding a plastic bag. i look at her and then amanda says," they are sardines." rotten sardines were stinking up our office. how they got put in the supply cupbord, i have no idea.

tornadoes

last night there was a tornado. it went right through the town that i am living in. i was so freaked out! needless to say, i didnt sleep well last night. at all. a house right next to us got hit. so, we werent hit specifically. we did, however, get crazy wind, hardcore rain, and massive thunder and lightning. AND we lost power. its so sad, there are 48 reported deaths in a 60 mile radius from us.

the weather all over the place is crazy. i got on weather.com today... wow. you guys should check that out (if you already havent). yay! i hear more wind, thunder and rain.... oh my. the storm is gonna be over in this area again today, getting worse at night.

other than that, nothing is really going on. we'll just be down in the office again today. ill most likely be on weather channels on lunch break. oh ya! we might go into town for a few things... if the weather isnt too bad.

update

sorry all, the internet is not being very friendly so i cant add any more pics right now. sorry mom=( i got two more in).. ill try again later=/



me dressed up like pride and prejudice


a little house we saw on our walk

john

hey everyone!
sorry ive been lazy about posting... hehe.
pretty much just been down in the office working eveyday. lol! which is what im here for. mostly ive been writing a lot of encouragement letters. they were backed up from like months ago, so there were a lot to write.
for my birthday (yesterday) i went with my friend (the other amanda) and her mom, sister, and friend into franklin. we all went out to sushi and thai food. it was so so so so good! though. i think i need to take them one more time, to real sushi. cuz all they had was a roll with no REAL raw fish. lol! they liked that though. amanda has agreed to eat the hard core stuff=) after that we all went to the hotel they were staying at, and hung out. all we did there was watch tlc shows like 'what not to wear' and 'say yes to the dress' it was pretty cool. the following morning we went to the franklin mall. they have some GEWD stores there. it was fun! although all the girls here say that the nashville mall is better. but- im pretty satisfied with the franklin mall. its better than the santa maria mall. thats for sure. i think that any mall is better than the santa marias.

okay. scary story. this just happened like ten minutes ago. we were coming home from being in town agian. it was one of the other g irls, lisa, birthday. so we surprised her and took her out to ice cream. then we get lost on the way home for 45 minutes. no joke. in the dark too. everything looks different in the dark. after all that, we get on the road to home, and some guy is following us. literally! i know mom you migjht think that we were are being dramatic. hahahaha! but for sure. he drove past us. then we turned into the wrong drive way, so he turned around and like stopped right next to our car as we backed up. so by then we were freaked. then! he turns around and sticks his head outr the window, and just looke at us. nothing came out of his mouth. i dont think he was lost or needed directions somewhere. so i told the driver ( amanda holbrook) to not pull into our REAL driveway. so we passed it then turned around. he had turned around with us. then back around again and was just sitting there. we pulled into pearls driveway and took the long way to our house. then literally ran inside. i was hanging onto one of my shoes with my toes.... seriously. it was scary. uh! not. fun.

some pictures

^^scared to death? maybe.^^

^^vision and getty^^

^^room^^

^^road town^^

^^home sweet home, for the next month and a half^^

^^got these done in a day and a half^^

no water, but plenty of mud

^^^^^^thats what we got lost in. at night.^^^^^^^


just when all of us girls thought, we have water!! we lost it three days later. so yes we are without water again. please pray that it returns quickly!!! and that the construction guy would get the water pipes covered (they are currently exposed to the weather and all it brings). thankfully i was able to get a shower in before we heard the news.

well, things are going pretty well here. just working in the office (or the ice box as i like to call it). ive been in charge of the phone calls the last three days. it keeps you on your toes. thats for sure. when im not on the phone taking orders, getting info for account changes, and women who need help logging in im usually doing computer work. as far as the computer work goes i go in and change accounts, send letters to people, sift through squirrel mail (lol), and add people. then theres the packaging and shipping.

hey something exciting! and scary. wow. i still cant believe my chicken self did this. although most the time i thought that i was gonna pass out with fear. lol! clara came over a couple days ago and hung out with us for a while. then had planned on spending the night at vanges. so when it was time for her to walk over there the other amanda and i didnt want her to have to walk through the woods, in the dark, by herself. so- we all linked arms and walked into the darkness of the forest(dramatic huh?). we got there just fine! we had clara as a guide! she has been there thousands of times. but once on our way back. not so much. lol! we got a bit lost and couldnt find the little trail into the woods that would take us back to the campbells house. we found it,eventually, and timidly entered back into the woods. (also when i say woods, i mean Woods....) there was no running either. it had been raining all day and the day before so- mud. lots of it. our shoes were in bad shape after that. i guess my converse are gonna have to be reserved for mud walking now. anyways, it was scary but we made it through.

sorry that all my posts are so long. and thank you to all who endure the time it takes to read them!

the henningsens

hey everyone!!
we had a blast yesterday! we went into "town" yesterday. we went to walmart and out to eat at the cracker barrel. yesss! im part of the cracker barrel club now. haha! if any ways read this post, i went to cracker barrel! (and i had something with bacon mr way!) haha! good times. so it was fun. i got batteries there for my camera. i know i know, its crazy. jk.

when we got home after being out, we all decided to take a nap. it was heavenly. our schedules are still all thrown off. so the sleep was needed. then we went over to the henninstons, where i really think that i met kalebs twin (pre long hair) haha! it was crazy. i kept wanting to call him kaleb when i talked to him. i had to keep reminding myself that he wasnt! they were a really cool family. they had ten kids and like three or four were married with kids of their own. so we had all their younger kids, plus their older children and grand children, plus a few of the neighbors and their kids, and then all of us!! there were so many. i still dont understand how we all fit in the house. at one time i think that there were like three babies crying at the same time... as soon as we walked in a bunch of the guys wanted us to write songs with them about coming here and living with the campbells. cuz you know they meet all the rubie girls. so- they are used to having all these girls come over at some point. they gave me a guiar and had me play with them for a while. it was so fun! they all have martin guitars... ahhhhhhh=) anyways, the henningston family are a recording family. they are all signed and record together. though some of them are breaknig away and starting to have their own contracts. they sing country christian and write a few normal songs on the side. they are pretty good. we stayed at their house for a couple of hours talking, singing worship songs, and having theology discussions. it was all very interesting. i really enjoyed it. i think we (at least i will) end up going over there a few times. im sure some the other girls will too though. their daughter wanted to get together with another girl (who happens to be named amanda too) and i tomorrow. it should be fun! shes really cool. her name is claire(17). so ya!

i met the campbells oldest daughter the other night as well. she so funny. there is never a moment when you wonder where is evangeline?? cuz you can hear her. shes really nice! haha! very funny. she has nine kids. i like her=)

tomorrow is my second day of work! yay for me! its fun.

eventually ill post pictures. i only just got batteries yesterday though!

(mom, dean, and other family/friends i forgot to tell you all that you can comment on here without having a blog. =)

bathtubs made out of sinks...

okay- so, on the drive here last night, mr campbell informed us that one of the water pipes had frozen and broke while they were in new zealand. so they only have one water pipe which ment quick showers. then this morning, mrs campbell walks in the office and says," girls, i have a bit of bad news. it seems the guys who were working on the other pipe, have busted our last pipe. the water came out the cracks and is now frozen as well." so no showers, no flushing of toilets (or pulling the chain as mrs campbell says), no washing of clothes, no dishwasher... we'll be using the spring water from the sink to wash our hair, face, and arms. at least we have water at all!! so please pray that they can get the pipes fixed soon!!!

so, i woke up this morning totally unsure of what to expect. after today im pretty excited for the rest of the trip! excited for the adventures, good times, and lessons ill learn. also the trials. its actually fun working down in the office. i cant help but to think of "the office." today i added a bunch of people to the above rubies group on the computer. i did that from 9 until 12:30. had lunch then, packaged a bunch of news letters from then until about 3. there are four other girls working here with me: lisa, hannah, carrie, and another amanda! they are all really great. fun, easy to talk to.

haha! all the girls adopted from liberia are so cute and funny and very sweet! they almost never stop talking and laughing. i love to see them laugh for some reason. their names are psalmody(16), sapphire(15), and mercy(15).

we went on a four mile hike today. it was really nice to get out and walk a bit. and though everything is still bare, it was still very pretty. we got back and finished i the last of the packaging. now im free for the rest of the evening!