some pictures

^^scared to death? maybe.^^

^^vision and getty^^

^^room^^

^^road town^^

^^home sweet home, for the next month and a half^^

^^got these done in a day and a half^^

no water, but plenty of mud

^^^^^^thats what we got lost in. at night.^^^^^^^


just when all of us girls thought, we have water!! we lost it three days later. so yes we are without water again. please pray that it returns quickly!!! and that the construction guy would get the water pipes covered (they are currently exposed to the weather and all it brings). thankfully i was able to get a shower in before we heard the news.

well, things are going pretty well here. just working in the office (or the ice box as i like to call it). ive been in charge of the phone calls the last three days. it keeps you on your toes. thats for sure. when im not on the phone taking orders, getting info for account changes, and women who need help logging in im usually doing computer work. as far as the computer work goes i go in and change accounts, send letters to people, sift through squirrel mail (lol), and add people. then theres the packaging and shipping.

hey something exciting! and scary. wow. i still cant believe my chicken self did this. although most the time i thought that i was gonna pass out with fear. lol! clara came over a couple days ago and hung out with us for a while. then had planned on spending the night at vanges. so when it was time for her to walk over there the other amanda and i didnt want her to have to walk through the woods, in the dark, by herself. so- we all linked arms and walked into the darkness of the forest(dramatic huh?). we got there just fine! we had clara as a guide! she has been there thousands of times. but once on our way back. not so much. lol! we got a bit lost and couldnt find the little trail into the woods that would take us back to the campbells house. we found it,eventually, and timidly entered back into the woods. (also when i say woods, i mean Woods....) there was no running either. it had been raining all day and the day before so- mud. lots of it. our shoes were in bad shape after that. i guess my converse are gonna have to be reserved for mud walking now. anyways, it was scary but we made it through.

sorry that all my posts are so long. and thank you to all who endure the time it takes to read them!

the henningsens

hey everyone!!
we had a blast yesterday! we went into "town" yesterday. we went to walmart and out to eat at the cracker barrel. yesss! im part of the cracker barrel club now. haha! if any ways read this post, i went to cracker barrel! (and i had something with bacon mr way!) haha! good times. so it was fun. i got batteries there for my camera. i know i know, its crazy. jk.

when we got home after being out, we all decided to take a nap. it was heavenly. our schedules are still all thrown off. so the sleep was needed. then we went over to the henninstons, where i really think that i met kalebs twin (pre long hair) haha! it was crazy. i kept wanting to call him kaleb when i talked to him. i had to keep reminding myself that he wasnt! they were a really cool family. they had ten kids and like three or four were married with kids of their own. so we had all their younger kids, plus their older children and grand children, plus a few of the neighbors and their kids, and then all of us!! there were so many. i still dont understand how we all fit in the house. at one time i think that there were like three babies crying at the same time... as soon as we walked in a bunch of the guys wanted us to write songs with them about coming here and living with the campbells. cuz you know they meet all the rubie girls. so- they are used to having all these girls come over at some point. they gave me a guiar and had me play with them for a while. it was so fun! they all have martin guitars... ahhhhhhh=) anyways, the henningston family are a recording family. they are all signed and record together. though some of them are breaknig away and starting to have their own contracts. they sing country christian and write a few normal songs on the side. they are pretty good. we stayed at their house for a couple of hours talking, singing worship songs, and having theology discussions. it was all very interesting. i really enjoyed it. i think we (at least i will) end up going over there a few times. im sure some the other girls will too though. their daughter wanted to get together with another girl (who happens to be named amanda too) and i tomorrow. it should be fun! shes really cool. her name is claire(17). so ya!

i met the campbells oldest daughter the other night as well. she so funny. there is never a moment when you wonder where is evangeline?? cuz you can hear her. shes really nice! haha! very funny. she has nine kids. i like her=)

tomorrow is my second day of work! yay for me! its fun.

eventually ill post pictures. i only just got batteries yesterday though!

(mom, dean, and other family/friends i forgot to tell you all that you can comment on here without having a blog. =)

bathtubs made out of sinks...

okay- so, on the drive here last night, mr campbell informed us that one of the water pipes had frozen and broke while they were in new zealand. so they only have one water pipe which ment quick showers. then this morning, mrs campbell walks in the office and says," girls, i have a bit of bad news. it seems the guys who were working on the other pipe, have busted our last pipe. the water came out the cracks and is now frozen as well." so no showers, no flushing of toilets (or pulling the chain as mrs campbell says), no washing of clothes, no dishwasher... we'll be using the spring water from the sink to wash our hair, face, and arms. at least we have water at all!! so please pray that they can get the pipes fixed soon!!!

so, i woke up this morning totally unsure of what to expect. after today im pretty excited for the rest of the trip! excited for the adventures, good times, and lessons ill learn. also the trials. its actually fun working down in the office. i cant help but to think of "the office." today i added a bunch of people to the above rubies group on the computer. i did that from 9 until 12:30. had lunch then, packaged a bunch of news letters from then until about 3. there are four other girls working here with me: lisa, hannah, carrie, and another amanda! they are all really great. fun, easy to talk to.

haha! all the girls adopted from liberia are so cute and funny and very sweet! they almost never stop talking and laughing. i love to see them laugh for some reason. their names are psalmody(16), sapphire(15), and mercy(15).

we went on a four mile hike today. it was really nice to get out and walk a bit. and though everything is still bare, it was still very pretty. we got back and finished i the last of the packaging. now im free for the rest of the evening!

airports....(1st post in tennessee!)

well, im in tennessee! my plane didnt crash. lol! i didnt expect it to...

so we lef t a t like 5:40 this morning. maybe sixish. the drive went well up until we were about a "half hour" away from the burbank airport. we hit quite a bit of traffic. by the time we got to the airport, we were all worried that i wouldnt make the flight. we get up up the counter to check in, and the first thing that comes out of her mouth is," you are gonna have to hustle." i was thinking," oh great." we got the bags checked in then went to the metal thingys. oh. my. word. we had to take off shoes and jewelry! i had no idea that we had to do th at!!! i mean. ya. i knew we had to walk trough those things but- my shoes. anyways- so the people infront of us took forever. the guy kept telling the girl that she need ed to take off her jewelry, but i guess she didnt understand that. haha! finally we get through and dean turns to me and says," dont worry about putting your shoes back on, you dont have time." which ment that neither did he. so there we were, the both of us, running full speed through the airport. and of course my gate had to be the farthest. we get tot the gate and apperently another lady had gotten there late too, cuz the plane had already pulled away and then had to drop the stairs for her. i was able to run out and jump on. still without shoes. haha! it was funny. and then finding a seat. that was interesting. however- i made it. now im sitting here thinking of home and eating charms candy. lol!

in the airport here, there were all these awesome guitars cased around the floor with stories to follow them. it wa amazing! recording city. ahh.... amazing. i wonder?? i bet so many bands well, actually most im sure, have recorded here at some point. pure amazingness. oh and speaking of the airport here, my bags havent gotten here yet. lol! we have to go back later. i really hope they come.... im sure they will. i hope.

well, i miss and love you all! please keep me in your prayers=)

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most spastic picture of the year award '08 goes to:



scariest picture of the year '08 award goes to:

flying alone, but still happy.

so right now, im feeling pretty ontop of the world. i got some things worked out with a friend of mine. and it makes me happy. very. the feeling of loosing a friend... not good. so im so very glad that its worked out!

ive been able to work on my music a lot lately. its something that i really enjoy. and it my parents are supportive of me recording! im so excited. i wasnt sure how they would feel about it. they are pretty much for it. though, i still have a few more things to learn, and figure out before any recording happens. but- it will eventually. one of my goals is to learn as many instruments as i can.ive been doing piano, working on the guitar, and i have a flute. who knows, maybe ill throw in the drums. haha! ya.

AND last but not least, im going to tennessee! my first trip completely on my own! its gonna be a bit nerve racking with switching planes and not really know what im doing in the airport. and waiting for my second plane to come in. whew. crazyness. i get the opportunity to live with fellow christans for two months! helping them in their daily life stuff. also helping them create and publish a magazine. its snowing there right now too! so i get a chance to wear my awesome coat... ill post pics and stuff while im there.

tomorrow i get to spend time with friends... which will be amazing!

ive gotten to spend wonderful time with my family!

so yes, im feeling pretty on top of the world right now.

whats new?

well, im here to blog. i dont really have much to say.
things have been interesting these last few months. very.
some good, some bad. though, isnt that the way it goes
most of the time? maybe its just more so these last months
i think.



well, the nutcracker is gone and past. i must say, im happy
that its over and yet sad at the same time. it was a lot of
work and energy! i think my favorite parts out of my eight
were being the mouse king and waltz of the flowers. i enjoied
those a bit more than all my other parts. welll, i did like
part of snow. the middle-ish part. i got to do an awesome
tour jetè. fun. havent been back to ballet class yet. ive
been battling a cough, lost voice, and weird breathing.
so, the breathing being the biggest reason, i havet been back.
i didnt want to pass the not so funness to anyone there. its
getting better though. hopefully ill be able to go tomorrow.
it seems to be the worse in the evenings into the morning...
which, ballet is in the evening. sooo... .ya. now im just
rambling. would ya all pray that i get better soon?




my mom is outta town at the moment. down south. so we are all
manning the stations here, the best we can. without her, we
can get lost sometimes. haha! jk. we are okay. but we all
miss her. a lot.

sick...

okay so, i guess i have a cold now.
i woke up, and it was there. so weird
how that happens, huh? i mean, to come
on so suddenly. i was totally fine!
then- cold. uhg anyways... nothing
really all that new. same same. i guess
that i just wanted to post cuz i felt
like it. even though there is nothing
really to talk about.
so thats pretty much it.
peace

sos...

i have to do that, Penché↑

so update... well, i spent the entire day at the studio today. really. from 9am-5pm. im a bit sore. haha! im always sore for a while after rehearsals start. i dunno why i have to say i am, every time.
so i found out that my whole angel solo im on point. literally. so, im kinda stressed. i can do it! (haha! i have to boost myself up.) im sure it will work out. i thought i couldnt do the last dances i had to do, but, i did. soooo... mainly, i think, its just good teaching. haha!
deep breath*
ya. that is pretty much it. my days have been spent doing ballet and homework this last week. so there isnt much to tell.

latin choir

tonight my mom puts in the cd of the songs in latin we had to learn for choir, when i was like 11&12. memories. i like that memory. a group of kids, jake and i included, sang songs in a latin choir just before christmas. it was fun! a production that i will never forget. i remember the songs too! which make me happy for some reason...??? i have no idea why. is it just me, or have most home school kid sang in some choir or other, at some point? it does seem that way.

oh! nutcracker update! i have two roles now. i am a snow angel and the rat king. i cant wait! and because i decided to not make time for stretching and doing warm-ups to stay in shape, im very very sore. ive stretched a lot in the past few days and now im very sore. my neck... uh even thats sore. lol! i had a hard time rolling outta bed this morning because of it. im glad though. that way i wont be too outta tune when i go back for rehearsals.

ever dream about being a three headed rat?

well, here i am again.

gues what!?
okay, so i have wanted to be in the nutcracker for a long time. since i first started ballet. when we lived in sacramento, while i was a level three ballerina, i tried out. it was a bigish ballet company that was putting on the nutcracker that year. they- were very serious. i wont go into too many details, because that is a different story in and of itself. however it was an all day, two day process. i failed the first day, and went back the next with a higher hope. i got in that second as a chinese attendant. that was a long time ago... but the circumstances we were put under for the production, was not very nice. the instuctors were just a bit over harsh. so my mom didnt want me to deal with them. or rather, she didnt like the way they delt with the dancers. i didnt get perform.
so! to the point! i have a part this year! i am the three headed rat king. haha! i laughed at first. then i realized that i was in, and was excited. a certain friend of mine said, almost first thing, "i cant wait to see you dressed like a rat!" (he would). so there it is! my part in this years nutcracker. im very excited! i seriously cant wait. i may even gain another part;) i gained a few in the last performance. haha! if not, im quite happy enough to be the rat king.

ever had a day like this?(brody edition)

okay, today, like mother said, we were cleaning out our boxes in the garage. nevermind that most of the boxes between the three of us (brody, jacob, and myself), were mostly jakes. brode and i only had a box each. yeah. once brode and i were done with our one box, we resorted to picking up trash.

a habit of our kittens, before they were ban outside, was not going to the bathroom in the litter box. so brode and i spent time doing that as well. fun. then- as brody leans over to pick up some more delightfulness, he tips the bag thats already half full of it, on its side. he stand up. i start to smile. then- he realizes. haha! his face was full of such shock, horror, and disgust. he, uselessly trys to clamor up a mountain of random objects to avoid further being down-poured upon by the delightfulness that continues to unload. he did not succeed. he ended up finally putting the bag up right and standing there with a priceless expression. haha! i felt his pain. but the process was pretty funny.

i feel dirty.

JORDAN LINDSEY CARR!!!! why is your blog not accessible to me!!!??? grrr.

(im pretty worried about you. i havent heard from you since yesterday morning. im praying that your okay.)

my assumptions are gonna get me fired

well well, remember that week i was spose to have off. you know, this week? well it turns out that im not. and probably almost got fired on monday for not being there. i should have checked the schedule before i left saturday night. but- i didnt. not very responsible of me i must say. i really need to stop assuming. its a bad habit of mine. thank goodness my prayer was answered! i just got the," im not happy with you." instead of," yeah, i dont think you working here is working out." whew! (thank you Lord). hopefully by this thursday, the steam will have all blown off. (im afraid even to walk in there. ill do it though! ill hold my head up! haha)

today has been rather uneventful. im trying to decide what to do with myself for the rest of the evening. before i finally lay my head to rest. lol! ( like ive done anything to make my head tired).

laters all.

(i miss you=)

time must have wings

do you ever feel like time goes by way too fast? one minute its a cold day in january, the next your almost in the middle of august, at the end of summer... i just. wow. i seriously feel like it was january a week or two ago. i try to think of how in the world time went by so quickly! it escapes me. all ive really done is school and work. i mean, sure i have been with friends. but- not that much! just goes to show, i guess. maybe when your focused on something(s) you dont really pay attention to the weeks that start and end. subconsciously you know that fact, but dont spend time really thinking about it.
im wondering what your doing right now..?? there is no way you are sleeping. i can think of you just lying in bed staring at the ceiling, wondering what im doing as well.
i cant wait until your back. though, i know your having fun. (no matter how you dont want to admit it=) i cant say that ive had a horrible time. just havent done anything out of the ordinary. well, i miss you. and- i love you very much.

the beginning of a week.

well, you left today. actually, you are in the process of leaving now. im pretty sad. i wish that you didnt
have to go. all your blogs are so sweet. ill be worried about you all
week. worried that you got hurt or something. since i have no way to
talk to you.... sadness.... ( i love you)

i really do need to post more.

well lately all ive been doing is working. thats my summer. lol!
i have this next week totally off! which is amazing. i usually work
three to four days a week. lately, meaning the last two weeks,ive been working four days. its nice to work by the beach though. i can hear all the sea gulls. i dont like them. i refer to them as flying rats. (haha
)... but its nice to hear the ocean life outside of four walls above
the sound of people shopping.... with questions, and complaints.ive also been working on school work. im happy to have a full week that i can get it all done. that- will be nice. sine ive been working, i almost prefer school. haha!

hey! i dont know if any of you still get on my blog, though zach left a comment not long ago,but welcome home Way family!!!!

day

im here! haha! i have a horrible habit; i post for a while then- i stop posting. psh yeah. what can i say??

well things have been busy. lots of school and ballet. copious amounts of both. i have both today, just like i had both yesterday. i have, not surprisingly, been added into three more parts in two of the performances for ballet. hey hey! im considered a level three more now! when i restarted ballet my teacher didnt know where to put me, because of my history in ballet. so im officially picking up where i left off. YES! (which was half way through my fourth year.)

hey guys could you all pray that i get my school work done before the fall. i really would like to go to hancock starting this fall! that would be pretty awesome!

and... thats it.

hello to all! haha! you all will have to let me know how you are all doing. im doing pretty good. i cant complain. i have had a crazy couple of weeks! im now in four preformances (for ballet), i had an all day long class with mr. pudewa not long ago, i have had quite a few meetings in a.g. this last week, (i know this doesnt seem crazy but-) i need to talk to my dad... about me coming down soon and the summer visit. yeah the summer visit, oh man. hes not gonna be very happy i dont think. that being because, i just cant go down for two months this year. (much like last year, cept last year i was down there for one month. this summer we're talking like very limited amount of time.)i have too much to do this summer. and- i think im old enough to plan things for the summer. last year i kinna got in trouble with him and my step-mom, for not being there. mhm, yup. so yes that will take a few weeks to build up courage to call and tell them that again. whew!

today im not doing much. i have school and ballet. thats pretty much it... i dont think ill be going anywhere or doing anything else (that i know of).

let me tell you

hello all... or at least to those of you who still get on here.

well, ive been pretty busy this week. my mom has been taking jacob to mr. p's writing class since monday, and has to until thursday. so ive been kinna playing the role of both sergeant mother and sister. lol! its been pretty fun actually. although-i havent been able to get all my school work done (which isnt good.)

im currently in the process of making beef burgundy for dinner. yeah- im hoping i didnt screw it up. cuz i wont know if i did for 8-10 hrs. it should be fine. it wasnt all that much work; its in the crock pot. yeah, okay, i agree with you all, enough dinner talk.

im taking mr. p's class for the SAT essay on friday. ill be gone from like 7:00 in the morning, til' some time in the afternoon. yeah, all day. i have to bring a lunch with me... psh. there will be quite a few people there that i know though. so thatll be pretty cool.

nothing extraordinary is going to happen today. just the basics: school (or what i can get done), chores (ive already done those), making meals, taking care of the kids, and my piano lesson... except later tonight when i get to see kevin! thats gonna be fun... other than that, nothing. nope nothing.

too much brain power

you know... its a sad thing that i have to think of a post. i shouldnt have to think that hard to figure out a post. its rediculousness. seriously.

i shouldnt have to think this hard=/
i shouldnt.
nope, i shouldnt.

a day in the life of the inevitable...

well today- was my first day of ballet for six years! before then, i took it for three years. and i know that some of you may be laughing at my doing ballet... but i do enjoy it. plus, im not allowed to do soccer anymore. because my mom didnt like me being pumled by the guys. shes worried that id get seriously hurt. it is possible. s i also need more units or credits (whatever you like best) in p.e. so ballet counts for p.e. and like i said, i do like ballet. laugh all you want. oh! and im already gonna be in a preformance. so yeah we're talking like ballet four times a week.

i havent done much besides school. and youth group tonight... and piano lessons tomorrow. (although i do still have a physics test thats, sadly, calling my name.) alas- i must depart. sorry for talking about nothing but ballet. and if i was borring. there just hasnt been a whole lot going on=/

and just to let you know i think the word "alas" is a pretty cool word. i think that its probably one of my favorite words. i have quite a few favorite words, and that is definatly one of them. yeah... i think i need to be done now.

my week slightly magnified...

well, it seems as though i dont have much to say. as im sure youve noticed, by my lack of posting. ive been thinking for a while (when ever i get the time to think) about a good post. ive contemplated posting a poem, part of my stories, making up an adventure,or posting a dream. and none of them were very appealing to me.

so here it is... it may be borring, but- here it is anyways. (i promise i wont talk about school... cept for mentioning it here... school is not that exciting.)

so, we had company this last monday-wednesday. good friends of ours from life up in ol' sac. the pooches. it was pretty fun... i mean it was nice to see them. cuz we really didnt do much; just stayed home. well- not entirely true. mrs. pooch took all the little girls(there were three of them) to the beach with a hot thermus of tea. the boys didnt go. and neither did my mom and i. she and i had to stay home, on account of the fact that, i had to work at the the home-less shelter. and wouldnt be back in time.

and hey, ive been in search of some good books. i would really like to start reading a book. but- have been unable to find one that i was truely intrested in. which is an amazing feat... concidering there are millions of books in the world. so- if any of you have a good book... comment me the name! please...

annndd i would like to take this time to say, i love the new pride & prejudice...

hm... something more... i dont feel like im done yet. i went to youth group for the first time since last august. yeah that was fun. there were quite a few new faces.. and wednesday, i went to home groups with kev... that was fun... it was good to see him=) we played this pretty awesome game... next time i do anything, get-together- wise, we should do that game.

and i dont know who is gonna read this long post. or if anyone even does read my posts, (cept kev=) but- yeah... i guess ill be talkin to you all laters.

makes the medicine go down

yeah, he is amazingly cute. right here hes listening to the key of E (yeah zach hes listening to you). and he loves that song... (spoon full of sugar)
and im pretty much posting just for the sake of posting. so thats pretty much it=P

so whats my specialness?

okay so i was watching oprah with my mom (and no, i dont watchg oprah at all, given the exception of today) and it was about these amazing kids. like one kid was performing surgerys at the age of seven! and is now researching a cure for cancer. then there was this girl that was eight and could sing some wonderfully beautiful opera! she was amazing... then this girl from austria that could memorize names from seeing a person once... she can remember them two years later! meeting them once. annnddd there was a little boy who is five and is doing fractions! its insane. so i was thinking... what is my amazing gift? or was i assembled without one? or have i yet to discover it? i have no idea... i wish i knew. so i asked my madre. and she says," well theres no one in the world like you. like- no one has you eyes or your hair... no one is- .... like you!" and then a few minutes later she says," i feel like a retarded worthless idiot." and now we both feel lacking in specialness.... so ya. i feel yeah... im happy for all those kid though! it is amazing the gifts God gave them...

i have been resurrected!

guess what? i live! and yes im back... i dunno where i went. but- im back. well, yeah... wow. i havent posted for so long that i have no idea what to say. ive been busy... school and working... yes, and chores. i just wanted to tell you all that im alive. and- despite a certain someone asking me to post about a certain valentine of mine. i am just gonna say, that i dont think im gonna. i dont think it would be smart of me, or a good idea. so i refrain from the public posting of such things. if you would desprately like to know... you would have my cell number. and if you did you could call me. then i would decide if i wanted to tell you or not. (no, calling wont get you the info automatically.) haha! i love you guys. i really do.

im sorry...

well its a sad sad thing, when bloggers stop blogging... and i havent been a very good blogger lately. hahaha.... to be honest, i havent really wanted to blog. for- no apperant reason. hm, i guess ive been weird. gone through a little weird stage. anyways... chrismas was good. we had some family over; my auntie lo and her kids. they came about two days before hand. and a re still here. but- it kinna looks like they are leaving tomorrow morning. and im going with them. to visit my dad... and all that good stuff. other than that, nothing much has happened... psh...

deep fried....

hey everyone! well tonite is the eragon opening show!and im going with a bunch of friends. i think we're going at 10, but it doesnt start til' 12. so ya. and, tomorrow is the civil war dance. which i am pretty excited about. but- i always am... i still have a little more sewing to do though. it should all work out by tomorrow. it always does.

annnndd... well i burned my hand. again. but- worse this time. i had to go to the doctors for it. okay, so ill tell you guys the basics... i was frying tortillas, (yes it is an oil burn) and jake was at the sink... and i turned around with the pan, mind you it still had boiling oil in it, and i realized that he was there. so i lifted the pan up, and it spilt.... all over my shoulder and hand. okay. im not afraid to say it, i cried. a lot. and for a while too. man! oil burns hurt like crazy!!!

rain, with a forecast of... more rain.

well, it seems, as though im gonna have to say goodbye to a very dear friend of mine... jack... yup, my little kittie is going home with zach. and im sad about it. but- i know that he'll be taken care of. so, no worries about that. alas, i promised zach and thats just the way things are. i think, though, i should have visitaion. otherwise, i would never really see my most loyal, pansy of a cat=[
anyways, enough of my sappyness. we're all running around getting ready for a christmas party. ive been ready for the last hour and a half, or so... sometimes curly hair has its advantages. lol! air dry... its pretty wet and rainy here. although, its stopped raining for the moment. i hope it rain more later. i didnt have the chance to go out and stand in it. as its started raining late last night. maybe ill go jump on the trampoline in the rain=] that would be fun.

some old roots...

hey guys,
well, i'm in sacramento... man, it seems so weird to be here. i haven't been here since i was like 12. ya... but- i still remember everything. i think part of me misses it. its coming onto four years of living in the santa maria area. and i like it there. but- sometimes your heart just misses your old roots. haha... i sound like im thirty years old, or something... we move so much; so to go back to a few of the places you actually liked sometimes, makes me sad. it was a different life in each place it seems. i mean, the base of the life lived from one place to the other, is the same thing. just the people you encounter along the way, make everything different. some of them you never forget, others you hardly remember. you see some again, and others not at all. it's just the way those people change your surroundings... like we're here at the pooches, and they are a few of the people who made life in sacramento what it was. and, its them that make me miss ol' sacramento. but- i like where we live now. and want to finish that chapter. but alas, im not sure if the chapter there will end anytime soon. haha, so we have a lot more people to encounter, im sure.

sunfish.....

okay, this picture does them no justice... they are way more ugly. the sunfish at the monterey bay aqu. is so much fatter, and has blubber hanging from its entire body. and- it looks like it has a unibrow... ya, it is an ugly fish. i gotta wonder what God was thinking when he made it. for our amazment? i have yet to read more on it. then i'll let you know what its purpose is... or even if it has a purpose. or if its just some floating blob of a fish. haha... (i do know they grow to be like 13ft... or at least so they've discovered already.... and can weigh up to 3000lbs.) okay, i would like to point out that i dont hate the sunfish. im just amazed at its ugliness. i mean.... who wouldnt be?

hello

well, i looked in my archives thing... and saw that i hadn't posted for december... and decided it was time to post. well, not much has happened since my last post... its been pretty laid back. we haven't really done anything too exciting or crazy.
we are going to sacramento next week, on wednesday. im excited... but- not so much for the drive. im not a car person. at least for that long of a time. we're making stops on this trip i think though. so that will be good.
my next geology class is this monday. its a long class, but a good one. (we have to bring a lunch it soo long!) haha... last time i didnt know that, and i was lunch-less. oh well, i lived.
thats pretty much all. at least what im doing the next couple of days.....
OH! the civil war dance is on the 15th. so i have a little sewing to do....... ya. i think im gonna finish it on monday.

http://www.prideandprejudicemovie.net/main.html
i love this sight=]

books...

well, it looks as though, ill be traveling this thanks giving.
i have a long day ahead tomorrow. but- i at least get to start
it off the right way, with a starbucks=] my mom and i are going
to get up as early, as we can. (or as early as she can, i should say.)
and go, get the morning started off, in a good direction. as always,
im happy to go see my dad, but kinna sad. since this is the first year
we are doing thanks giving at home. and not going down to socal.
well, given the exception of myself. i guess there is always next year,
that will be my first thanks giving spent at home.
i went in search of a new book today. and was sadly scooted out of b. dalton
just as i thought maybe i had found one. (i will say, for being such a no good
mall... youd think they would try to stay open a little longer, but- they close
nine.) oh well. im gonna see i if cant get dean to stop at barnes n noble on
the way down south.
well, i should go. good night to you all!

hello, and good bye....

hey guys well... it looks like im gunna be computer-less again. but only until monday.
im going outta town too. for thanks giving ill be at my padre's house. and wont come back until, sunday. after leaving this coming monday. so, that should be fun. im not very excited about driving though. unless..... i get to drive. im working that out right now. or i mean, today im working it out.
well ive gotta go....

hello

hey guys... sorry for not posting. i've been crazy busy. but- debate is over so... woop woop, to that. my days have suddenly not been so well, ya. (without debate i mean.)
i never got on to talk about our six flags trip. it was fun, but there were a grip of people there. so there are a lot of rides that we didnt go on. but- it was still fun. we went on the "something" rapids, as one of our last rides. i had no idea we were going to get that wet! or at least most of us did... i think both the alyssas', zach and myself were the only ones who got soaked. carl, tim, and john got lucky on that one. we had fun. its times like those that i love being with friends. we can all just be ourselves, and be weird... the guys were soo funny. ah, good times.
psh... my hands are so cold. jake and i just got back from skateboarding to get some candy. i really dont like skating against the wind. oh well...

this is amazing.

this took forever to do....

melted my hand...

well, i melted my hand yesterday. ya, it looks kinna deformed. but thats okay.
it happened when i was cooking lunch. the handle of one of the pots was over the steam
of another pot... for a while. and i went to go move it, and didnt really hit that point
of," oh my hand really burns." it was a very slow reaction. im retarded. and ya... i
burned it. haha... i screamed for the first time in, a while. i laughed at the way i
screamed, after i screamed. it was kinna funny. then when i went to turn on the
water to cool it down, the water was hot. now, it has been wrapped up, and looks
a lot like zachs hand. (when his hand was wrapped.) oh well. i had to unwrap it a
few times. ya, that didnt feel to good.

of and if...

of promises, lost and never found.
of new memories that never happened
that were supposed to begin...
of hellos', and good- byes', over the phone.

if lost promises were found,
and new memeories restarted...
if hellos' and good-byes' were said in a differently.
what if?

...of the ifs', and if the ofs'...
of the ifs' that could happen,
and if the ofs' that already happened, could be fixed...
what would happen?

burning up so cal...

hey guys... well, there is a fire down in so cal. and so far its burned its way to palm springs, and four firemen have died because of it... (the fire was started by some arsonist...) these fires are going to be going on for a while... and well- my dad is working those fires. could you all please, pray for my dad and all the rest of the firemen, for their protection and the families of those four firemen who died? (one of the pictures, is of a burning fire-engine... three of the firemen killed were caught inside that engine... and burned in there. i have no idea how the other died.)

okay, im back...

hey guys. well, my socal trip is over. and i'm glad to be home. life is better here... not so much drama. i love my family. but when you walk in and all people talk about it," he said she said... and so and so's mad..." you want to be there so whoever has someone to talk to and vent on. but- sometimes its hard. especially with family. cuz it kinda hurts to see your family, doing that to each other...

on a different subject... i spent four and a half hours in a geology class today. it was intresting and all. but, four and a half hours. ahh... it was a long day. i glazed over at one point and started doodling on my paper. it took a few minutes to pull myself back. but- over all, i did feel like i learned quite a bit. and i really liked all the biblical refrence... this class is once a month for five months... so, its not so bad. time wise i mean...

haha! jack, one of my kittens, is sitting here, really trying to get my attention. purring, meowing, cocking his head, and rolling around... but- he's just not getting the attention he wants. then i pick him up, and he's over it... go figure. oh well... he is a stinker, but he's my little buddy. at least until someone takes him away from me. if anyone does. it looks doubtful so far...

hello...

well, im in socal... and am trying to look on the bright side of it. i cant lie im really not all for being here... i kinda wish i werent. and here, like i said in my other posts, we have nothing but fast food. and since i got that whatever disease illness, thing. my food has been even more limited. i wouldnt eat fast food anyways... (and for those of you who dont know; we're not sure about what or which sickness i have. i hate saying i have a disease, even though thats kinna what it is. im not going to die. i would after a period of many years, if it were the one that i dont remember the name of. the other option is less serious. but i wont die tomorrow. at least not from the disease.)
so anyways. our last game of soccer is next weekend. im excited. well kinna... im sad the season is already pretty much over. but- theres always indoor. im missing the game this weekend, to my moms relief. lol! she thinks the mexico team is too ruff. haha.. oh, last game, a really BIG guy on the other team body slammed me. ya... i have to say i think that that was the only game that i was seriously scared of one of the other players. i tried to avoid him the rest of the game. but-that didnt work out too well. i was slammed again. oh well, it happens.
oh today we went to the Ronald Regan Presidential Library. its not a book library, its a museum... it was amazing! i really enjoied it. ill publish some pictures when i get home... i have to say my favorite part was the airforce one room. it had the plane that Regan used to fly in. we were even able to walk through the plane itself. ya, it was pretty much my favorite part.

my non-posting-ness...

hey everyone. sorry for my recent non-posting-ness. dean was outta town again. so i was computerless. anyways. not much has gone on. its been well... everyday-ish; school, chores, running here, running there. you know the basics.
oh but i am going to hopefully, enter something into the fine arts festival. if i finish it. im a little discouraged at the moment... but hey, if anyone wants to do a preformance with me. tell me. i think it would be pretty fun. (i say that now... who knows. im weird like that.) but- besides that, it should be pretty intresting. i cant say that it would be fun. cause all im doing is entering some art piece or another, and waiting to see what happens...
well, i have to go. dean has to use the computer...

NATO...???

im just going to say. that, i thought doing debate this year would be a little more, tolerable... because ive already done it for a year. so i thought that i would do better, and that i would be more confident. well, this year the task of speech and debate, still proves to be difficult. i feel lost on the whole subject of NATO. ive done a grip of research. and sill have no idea, what im really debating. this seems to be my problem. i did the same thing last year.

i just remembered why i dont like this class...

today...

well, remember before, in my last post, when i said i hadn't died... but that i felt like i did. well, i seriously feel like i have. ahhhh.... i went to bed last night, (or morning) at three a.m... yes and it looks like it'll be a late night tonight too. cause i still have dishes to put away and i have to pick out my church clothes. (not that picking out church clothes takes a lot of time... but when your tired, picking out clothes of any sort is a chore. and it seems like it takes forever.)
the reason i went to bed soo late last night, was because i spent the night over at the wrights house. we were up talking all the way.. until the wee hour of three. yes. so im tired. not to mention i did spend a few hours in the sun. (i could not find any shade. seriously.) i did crazy cleaning in a short amount of time, and i babysat... ya, it was a full day. but- it was a good day.

...crazyness...

hey... wow. i think this is the earliest post ive done. its not too early though...
well, just wanted to say that i didnt die. (yet...) jus kidding. nope i didnt die. but i kinda felt like i did for a while.
today is a pretty full day. crazy. oh well, i kinda like the crazyness. (as long as my mom isnt stressed) we first are going to lompoc to do sewing at my moms friends house. then im meeting a friend at starbucks, from there i have a soccer game. then last but not least to the wrights. i doesnt sound crazy. but each thing is an hour or more, so when im done with one, its about time for the other.
well, thats kinda it.

first day...

hey hey... i finally had my first day at the barn. it was pretty amazing. i think it would be a cool trade just to have if ever i needed to use it... while i was there, i painted my moms tea hutch. then detailed it... so when i first painted it, i painted it a deep red color. then i put a layer of charcole grey. then- i took a paint scraper and scraped all the edges and corners, to give it an older more antique look. yes, i must say... it turned out pretty amazing. it looks kinda pirate-ish... i also started building a picture frame. its not even close to done. but- oh well. it will get there.

~Thailand~

hey everyone, my friend just got back from thailand... and she got a staph infection while in one of the hospitals. (most likely.) so please pray for her. and my parents and i are thinking that it might be a possibility that i could go back to thailand with her when she goes next. which, would be next september. it would be a mission tripo. so, i would only go for a month or so but, shes planning on going permenetly. i have a good year left but- to go on a missins trip there would be hard. because you pretty much are out i the boonies. and its considered impolite not eat what ever they set infront of you. which means rice, leaves, bugs, and monkey poo. yes monkey poo. im a little worried about the whole monkey poo idea. i mean a person could get sick because of that. and, there are desieses there, just like here but- a whole great deal worse. seeing as the karen have limited medical access, so things arent taken care of as they should be. so please pray for her full recovery so that she could go serve, and that God would make clear whether or not this is a place that he would want me to go serve.

*yours for the taking*

i currently have seven cats. five of which are kittens, who- are up for adoption. yes, and it looks like i cant even keep one. sad thing. i think i have to give my two favorites, Isabella and Jack. oh! they all have names but- you are welcome to rename them, of course. just wanted to let you all know that cuz, the person i adopted diana from, wanted me to keep her name. i think it used to be star or something cheesy like that. oh well. (haha, she actually has about three or four names... everyone has a nick name for her.)
so yes, anyways, please let me know if you want one... they are house trained, and are at the precise age to be taken.... for the sake of my parents, let me know as soon as you can.

a quote...

hey everyone, i just wanted to post a quote, that was in one of my history books...

"We should always seek for truth and knowledge,
but we should remember that knowledge and wisdom are of worth,
only if we let our lives be governed by them."

~ Cardinal Nicholas of Cusa

i would love to say more but- i have a library worth of school work to do....

september 15th...

well, tomorrow is carter's birthday. he will be a whole three years old. oh man, i cant believe it. three years ago, on september 15th, i took my siblings out to the play room that was seprate from our house.... eating cherios and apple sause for meals and watching lord of the rings... patiently waiting for him to finally be here... and he came.
let me tell you, carter has put up with a lot these few short years, in his life so far. he has already done some crazy stunts. (becoming a dare devil at an early age.) haha.... well, its kinda sad really. i can remeber this one time when he was around nine months old and my uncle thought it would be fun to push him, in his push car, down the stairs leading to the lower area of the acre and a half we lived on. despite the fact that i told him that we would be better off, it this just didnt happen, he decided to not pay heed to my caution. so he, starts decending down, the stairs, when he suddenly lost his footing and fell forward... giving carters little car, a very nice push... carter went flying down the stairs, with me not too far in toe, and did a flip... ladding upside down. yes, if it werent for the little seat belt holding him in.... he would have died, or at least been pretty significantly injured. to say the least, my uncle almost died that day too. (we later found my uncle hiding in a tree. no lie.) then of course i was a little bit of a help in the developing of his dare devilness... i enjoyied, pushing him all around yard at full speed, in yet again his little red push car. mind you, he enjoied it just as much as i did. course, my mom wasnt too thrilled.... basiclly, in these three years, he has encountered many more crazy stunts like these. given the exception of one... in just a sightly different situation. which my mom also wanted to kill someone for... months after his second birthday, a friend of mine asked him if he would like his head to be farted on... to which, my inocent two year old brother replied," sure!" haha, ya. and carters head was farted on. after which he said," oh no! you poopied!" haha.... ya, that person doesnt know how closely life would have ended. (i dont think my mom would have seriously killed my friend... thats just what she said...)
anyways, enough with memeories... tomorrow, for his birthday, carter wants to go to the muh-zoo. (ya, he hasnt quite gotten the hang of the word 'zoo' yet.) so, hes excited. i think we all are. none of us have been to the santa barbra zoo yet. so, yes... a day at the zoo. which carter swears he came from... again, no lie.

life is good....

well, my first day of crazy school classes is almost over... and i have to tell you, it wasnt as bad as i thought it was going to be. i had my first class of physics today.... and my first class of speech and debate. i think this debate class is going to be way better, and a lot more less stressful. no one day, write a whole speech thing. yay... then to top the day off, i finished with a starbucks.... mmm, a misto, with a shot of toffee nut. oh man was it good, as always.... ive gone to bucks so much that when i walk in they say,"the usual?" (and-i get a free drink every now and then.)

oh, after physics today, one of the guys kept asking questions about wildwood. cause i havent seen him for a while... and he just kept saying," tell me more, tell me more..." haha... i wanted to die of laughter. it came to a point where, i had to tell him, that i really had nothing further to say... even then he was convinced there was more... he just kept on saying, "tell me more." so, i ended up just rambling on a few funny things that happened... let me tell you, if his ride hadnt said," its time to leave...." i guarantee that i would have been doing a lot of rambling. i didnt mind it that much... it brought back some good memories...

well, my sabbatical has so far turned out for the better. i thought id be bored. but- i really have plenty to do... even though a lot of the of the stuff i do, is stuff im required to do, i still enjoy it. (yes even school, to a degree.) oh! i start my job at the barn tomorrow morning, im so excited... and to top it off, ive even gotten a few answers to a few prayers... everything has become more enjoyable.... life- is good.

...my sabbatical....

well, my parents and i have been talking... and we've decided that i need a sabbatical from a few things.... so, there will be a lot of things that i will disappear from. lol! i think, i'm going to be working at the barn a few times a week. and i'll be working at the home-less shelter on tuesdays. then there are various other things that i'll be dabbling in. (which are at the moment being looked into. ) not to mention, i have a ton of school to do...
im pretty excited about the first two listed... i've been wanting to go work at the barn for the last year or so... pretty much ever since i went there to check it out, on last years fourth of july... yet again, another hobbie... then, working at the home-less shelter... i think will be a good thing over all. although, i cant really describe what i think about that, completely.... i think that i would also like to find a plant nursery to work at... (just so you all know, the barn is where my cousin and brother made their picture frames... but there are a great many other things that i can make there.)

haha, i have currently also picked up the hobbie of making my own paper and journals... though right now the only thing i've been able to do with that, is the paper. (which im also still working out all the tools that i need for it.) i need to get a little better at it before i start making journals.

whale watching trip...

Ben's Barn.....

the boys made these picture frames at ben's workshop/barn.... (jacob, left) (brody, right) well, done lil' bros....

...non-survival, and urgent care...

well, ive decided that this year is going to be a non-survival year. i just found out that i already have a class tomorrow at 9:30 a.m. i have now come to the reality of, the quantity of crazy classes and soccer games i have... and i have to say," boy did i really add to the load on my plate...." i can only hope that somehow, through everything, that i will make it through to be, in the end, alive. (even if my life is only an inch of a thread long. haha...) but- its all going to be worth it... i think. to be able to graduate early. even if its only by one year...
haha... i spent almost three hours in urgent care today... missing soccer practice during it... all because of a foot injury. oh man... i was sad. cause i really need the practice. seriously. but- it looks like its all in my favor. nothing too life threatening. haha...
dean is going out of town again... for, i have no idea how long. and so once again ill be computer-less. (out of town for work. again.)
uh... ive bee trying to post some pictures on here. and the image thing wont work. has anyone else had that problem? or is it just my computer? ya, its most likely my computer.
well, good night to you all. i should really go. i have an early start tomorrow... so long.

survival...

hey everyone... got back from camp today... it was pretty fun. as usual. i have to say that our youth room, has pretty amazing activities... and you always seem to benefit from what you learn in Christ at all of the camps. although- to be fair, i have to give the camps credit. but- seeing that our youth room organizes our trips, the staff and james deserve a pat on the back... oh man, we had some pretty amazing adventures. haha... kaleb and jen were so funny at the talent show. i laughed until my sides ached... zach was pretty funny too... he can lip sink pretty crazy. but- i think my most favorite parts were: the great race, our 'Y' time, and just being with everyone. so it was a good weekend. oh, when we were up there... a few of us went on a little hike to the falls. i think that that place was amazingly beautiful. aw, man its times like those that make me want to just praise God and thank Him for all that he blessed us with. sometimes its just the simple things that give the most pleasure.
well, my uncle is here.... im not sure how longs hes staying. not much longer i imagine. hes already been up here since saturday- i think. and he has work. but, you can never tell, family can be pretty unpredictable. haha... i love him, hes so fun to be around... him and i have had some pretty good times; on the the road just being silly and random. all our little adventures...
oh man you guys... i could use some prayer with school. its going to be a pretty crazy next two years. as im still planning on graduating a year early... please just pray that i would stay motovated and that i would get through it all alive. (cause right now, to me, my chance of survival seems very slim.)

...untitled...

well, ill be pretty much computer-less the next few days... unless, i perchance, happen to go to a friends house... in which case they would most likely have one... i hope for the best in this area... (not that ill have a whole lot of time to get on... things now become crazy...)at least as far as school and various other activities...
camp will be a good break... im soo excited for it. i havent been to this one yet.
i have to say that this year has been the first time for all my camps. so, its all pretty exciting. (though, ive heard of some interesting games at kickback.) but- i really have a vague idea of this camp. whereas the others ive had more insight...
haha... oh man... im stuck awake again. and i have to get up early too. oh what to do, what to do? there isnt much to do. at least at this hour in the night. everyone else is sleeping. well, my mom isnt. but- shes pretty much getting in bed. soo, just me and this laptop.

sitting up late

hey guys... well, i cant sleep. i dont feel the least bit tired. but- its my fault... i had a monster too late. so, im currently stuck awake, even though i really want to be sleeping... especially since, we have church tomorrow... man, im retated. i told myself not to have that monster... but- i went against my better judgement. sigh* well, not much i can say or do.
im thinking of watching a movie... hm... thatll make me tired.
well, sorry about this post.... just the ramblings of a person whos really tired.... but just doesnt know it yet....

a verse...

hey guys hows i going? good, i hope. well, i found this verse from a friend of mine and it really caught me, so i wanted to share it with you all...

'Finally ,brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, watever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.'

Phil. 4:8

i thought it was amazing. and i keep thinking about how i always want to remember it. its kinda like, when ever im doing or around something that has one of the descriptions above, i want to be able to go over this verse....... i love the way God makes certain things stand out to you... He is so amazing and good...

i would love to talk more but- alas, i have a babysitting job to do. and have to leave for it in only a few minutes. so sorry for not commenting to those of you who reicently commented me. i will, hopefully by tomorrow...

...pretty much just everything...

hey guys... hows it all going? hope everyones good. well, hmmm, trying to make up for lost posts is going to be fun. just kidding... i wont type that much. it would be too crazy.
i found out who my coach is for soccer. mr. way... im glad... he seems like a pretty cool coach. ive also gotten the info. that our soccer starts today. we'll see if its true or false. i hope its true. despite the fact that im really sore from playing soccer at church last night. a bunch of us stayed after the organized games, and kept on playing. (i think we stopped around 11:30 p.m.) i was the only girl for a while... so, to say the least, i got pummeled a few times. but- thats just how soccer works. all there is to do, is get back up and keep playing. so it was an exciting night. man, the ways and all the people related to them are amazing soccer players... i really dont know all there names, sad to say... (kaleb you are amazing.)
well, the week alone went well. we pretty much were just hanging around the house, doing school work, keeping up on house work (thats always fun), and skateboarding pretty much everywhere. but- after a while i think we got borde of doing the same things over and over again... haha... my mom wanted us to go on a whale watching trip, in morro bay. and let me tell you. things were not good. i was sick within ten minutes... it was bad. i even took some motion sick medicine. (later ill post some of the pictures.) on the boat , i was thinking about how hard it would be for me to be a pirate. then again, it would be a ship, and not a little boat.... so we wouldnt get tossed around as much. haha... just a random thought.
well, i had better be going.

alone... wish i had a car.

hey guys... hows everything going? good with everyone i hope. welll, here it is... my whole family is going down to so cal. (again.) and cauze i just got home from being there... i really dont want to go down. so ill be home alone for four or five days. who knows, maybe more. we're never sure when we go down there. or we go down thinking of the day we want to come back. but- we dont get until two or three days after that. haha... an expected twist fate... anyways, i think thatll be exciting. but if i do that, i have to have a place to sleep every night.... so pray and cross your fingers that i can get that worked out. i have one day. i would have had more time but- i didnt know everyone was leaving on mon. until just yesterday. (haha... another thing that always happens.) well, talk to you all later...

all of the above...

wow, its been a while since my last post... sorry bout that. well, it seem as though im swamped. school work is crazy, there are things coming up that i really dont want to do, (meaning another car trip), my mom has been pretty sick. (so please prey for her... ) then during the midst of all this ive put upon myself the burden of maintaining the garden areas. why? no idea. it sounded like fun. but now, ive made it a pressing matter. it could still be fun.... oh and another camp is coming up and somehow, i need to find a quick way of earning a little money. (easier said than done. haha...)
i heard something in church yesterday... that really caught my attenion. and it was," that no matter what your doing do it for God." so i got to thinking about my recent schedual, and how i was, trying, to do it out of responsibility and just as something that had to be done. i thought it would be a whole lot better if i did everything for Him. so in a lot of ways, today has been better than the last few. i wasnt as pressed. or worried. ahhh, God is amazing.... somehow, the simpler blessings can mean the most...

tomorrow...

wow, today has been a confusing day. everything has been up in the air. it looks like im going back to Santa Maria tomorrow. so i have plenty to keep me busy until then. what with all the packing and double checking... it could take a while.
i went soccer shopping today with my dad today. it was my adventure for the day. lets just say we went pretty much all over the map. ive discovered that sports stores dont really have womens soccer shoes. in fact not even the womens sports store carried them. ha, which is an oxy moron. but- in the end i bought what i could and ordered the shoes... haha... even then the shoes that i ordered were mens soccer shoes. i like them though. they less like soccer shoes than most. if that makes any sense.
i need some help jordie. im pretty stuck on my story. (see i mentioned you.) im not sure if you remember or not, but- its just after the part where i described the dream. i almost had something when... all was lost. i feel pretty dumb. the boy nextdoor was telling me what was wrong with my story. and somewhat my drawings as well... just as well, im going to keep on going in the direction i was headed. i have a story line (for once) and i sticking to it.

just some fun pictures...

driveways and parkways...

im back. and im sick. im hardly ever sick, and yet im sick. well, hopefully it wont last long... you know, ive been a little on the emo side and not very positive, in my recent posts. and, im sorry. i sound so... i dunno... not like myself. im feeling more myself than ever again. so im sure that will be good news to you all. san diego was a fun trip. i havent been to sea world for a while. oh, the roller coaster was more of a combination of a roller coaster and a water ride. to say the least, we were all pretty wet. but, we were nice and cool for the rest of the trip. we also, while there, got to dine with shamu. yep, we had lunch with shamu. well, with shamu's cousin anyways. i dont remember what her name was.... it wasnt shamu though. haha... anyways, the day after thursday (shamu day), lori and i went out shopping. i finally found a good pair of jeans. i am excited... i havent really gotten to seriously wear them.
hm, im thinking of going for a swim. despite my non-feeling goodness. i most likely will... oh speaking of swimming. yestersday, pretty much everyone on our street was at our neighbor carry's house swimming, when out of no where... thunder started, then the lightning (we all fled from the pool), after that came rain and hail. yep, in 90 degree weather too. it was weird to be in the rain and not feel cold. it was hot and humid. it was pretty big hail too... i got hit in the head, and trust me when i say it didnt feel very good.
other than that... i went to church today, and worked in the fourth grade class. i came home and went straight to bed. i might go to the drive in with the neighbors, that depends on how i feel though. i hope i feel better by then.

i have a question... i keep thinking about... and i cant remember who asked me this... who ever it was, i give you credit, cause it still puzzles me.

"why do we drive on parkways, and park on driveways?" oh, i rememeber who asked this, my uncle chris... good times, good times. the other one was, " why is it called toothpaste, when we have more than one tooth." gotta love him.

going out fo town while being out of town...

well, the title pretty much is self explanitory... haha... im still at my dads. and everything is going pretty good. we're all just getting ready to go up (or down? i think its down.) to san diego... which means laundry. woo hoo. well not all of us are getting ready. my dad got his stuff packed this morning. he had good motovation though... he had to get packed if he wanted to go golfing. so, thats where he is now. i think we re all meeting up later... anyways, we're going out to san diego to vist family and go to sea world. (which just had roller coasters put in. yes!) but thats tomorrow. tonight we're just going to be with family, have dinner, and hang out. then the days after those two, are just going to be spent doing whatever. i think we'll be home on saturday. (home away from home.... haha... i really need to stop. so far ive managed to put in my blogs; behind on catching up, being out of town while being out of town, and home away from home. sorry if its annoying. its kinda annoying me...)
okay, so the last few days have felt really lonely. and i was thinking... i think i get carried away with being around so many people all the time. so when its just me, i get lonely too easy. i mean, im around people, but am doing my own thing some of the time. why am i not borde/lonely then? maybe its just hearing other people. i can fix that with music sometimes... but- its not always that easy. sometimes music doesnt quite cut it, in that area. hm... well, i have laundry and packing to do. not to metion that i got an invite to go some where, and sadly i have to go tell them that i cant make it. (i feel kinda bad.)

'oh bugga'

yes! i finally saw pirates 2! it was amazing... oh man, i wish i were still in the movie theater watching it. ill tell ya, the ending has left me hanging. ill be thinking about it for the next few days... and i know when the 3rd comes out... may 27th of next year. so, ill be looking forward to that one. anyways. i should go.
good night. hope everyone sleeps well.

...in the last half hour of my life...

haha... I just spent the last half hour or so reading all of my previous posts. And I will say its weird to see all of my attitudes and emotions. when im typing, at that specific moment, i really dont pay attention to all the; weird, quirky, insane, serious, depressing, overly excited things i say. (among other, definitions i could come up with. but- alas there are too many.) it only makes me admit my oddities or weirdness... which ever. they have become even more clearer than before. thats for sure.
its been hard trying to think of what else i could say. aside from the everyday things that come along. i guess i could talk a little about that. i think i found a church by the way. i wont really know until this sunday. hopefully, it will all work out. i bought a new pair of vans yesterday. on a count of the fact that i ripped my other pair at camp. im happy to say that the old pair is still wearable... but- well, the hole will only get bigger if i wear them every day like i have been.

(untitled.)

well, life here in so cal has been hot. seriously. ive been swimming everyday so far. but- im getting used to the heat.
anyways... ive been able to get some school done here. which is good. that way, by the end of this month ill have hopefully gotten somewhere in it. and- im not going to lie... i was slacking off. a little. but- now im trying to get back on track. so...
man... its hard to get sleep here. i have no idea why. im awake really late every night, or morning... two days ago i didnt get to sleep until four in the morning. ya. then i got up at nine... it was a little better last night. but- not by much.
nothing really exciting has happened. so theres not too much to say. sorry about that.

the so cal ups and downs....

well... i missed the opening night of pirates 2. but- if i dont think about it, its really not that bad. the reason i missed it is because im officially out of town for the rest of the month. on account of my visiting my padre. i guess this means that ill be missing the next magic mountain trip too. hu... go figure. oh well, if i dont dwell on it then it wont be so bad.
oh, i could use some prayer in the church area. cause usually when im down here, i just dont and cant go to church. but- i think this year is going to be different. its hard to just not go to church. i mean before, i was a lot younger. and i knew there God.... it was just that my heart wasnt completely longing to learn and grow in Him. now that i truly am, i really want to be able to go to church down here. also, none of my southern family are Christians. so it would be a good ministry. so please pray that i would find a church=)

this week, today, and days to come...

yes! i dont mean to complain. but- man am i glad that the cub scout day camp is over. i hope im not signed up to work there next year. ill have to keep a good eye and ear out for that one. the weird thing is, is that last year, wasnt nearly as bad or as crazy. hm....
we might go see superman at the drive-in tonight. ive heard that it was really good. i think that this will be my third time going to the drive-in... most people find that sad. but- i dont think its all that sad. i mean ya, i like the drive in but... i still have plenty of time to go, before i die. well, at least as of now i do... you can never know. so i cant be too sure about the whole''plenty of time" thing.
well, my uncle and cousin are up for the fourth. im pretty excited for that. i dont think that we have anything completely set... as far as what we re going to do on the fourth. we might go to the beach and have a bon fire. i hope we do. cause the other option would be to go to shell beach, hang out at the park until the fire works start... then watch the fire works. i think we would be able to see the fire works from avila beach, if we do the bon fire... i hope you all have a good fourth of july. good bye for now.

in darkness and in light...

wildwood was ah-mazing... ive learned so much. trying to sum it up, is going to be hard. well, we were on the way there, in an old van with no airconditioning, in 100 degree weather at least... and i got to thinking... "was anything life changing going to happen while i was up there?" i was doubtful to say the least. and i had no idea of what it was going to be like. (and i was worried my orchids wouldnt make it through the week, i was going to be gone.) so, i was worried. i didnt want to get up there and have all that time wasted, in hopes that it wouldnt be wasted... so we get there, and for the next four days, the same doubtfulness remained. it didnt come to me until the fifth day, while we up at our altar, talking about how God had stretched us, and where we had grown... to sum it up; i was afraid to let God take and lead my life... and i would try to walk with my eyes open, even though i was walking in the dark... now, i have no fear of walking blind folded. i guess thats a pretty cheesy analogy... but its the only way to really sum up what ive gained and what ive let go.

laundry, wildwood, and summer...

o man... i have tons of laundry to do.
and only one day to do it. lets hope i get it
all done before i go to wildwood.
well, not much else to say... cause most
of my summer stuff starts after wildwood.
from then on, it gets crazy. i still have to work
out a time to go see my dad... hes not very happy
that i havent been down yet, and that im leaving
for camp on fathers day. i kinda feel bad about it.

....

sad to say... i dont think i really have anything of interest to say. i guess its because things have been going so slow lately. or at least they seem like theyre going slow. no doubt, they are. or maybe its just me, i havent been my normal self lately... which im sure you all can tell. my every day things dont seem as worth while or exciting like they used to. so all the things i would have brought up in one of my blogs, dont seem interesting, so i just just stopped posting. its pretty pathetic, i cant even think of anything random to talk about... thats pretty bad.
i have spent more time in prayer and bible study, since ive been feeling this way. so, at least that part of it is good. maybe thats why God put me here. cause im not going to lie... i was slacking off as far as bible study and prayer. (i was feeling lousy because of it.) maybe the lesson here, is; even though life can get exciting and distracting, there should always be time for God. and that he should be the number one thing on your list... always... im sure you all know that and i know that. but- in the mist of the good, bad, crazy, sad, exciting, distracting, things you come across in life, i think it can be easy to forget even the most important thing... im not sure if thats just a fault in me, or if everyone struggles with it..?? it just proves the divine greatness of God, in that he never forgets about anyone and is always there. and proves my own imperfectness. even in my imperfections, he still loves me despite them. God is good...

gone, all at once.

well, im leaving tomorrow on boating trip in oxnard. and wont be back until sunday or monday. (which means no posting.) the reason why im going is because the trip is for a friends birthday. so thats pretty exciting. i was kinda crossing my fingers that i would come across some good rock formations, while i was out there. (safe enough for me to climb, without a rope anyway. but hey, life is taking risks right..??) that would be pretty amazing if i did find some. so everyone cross your fingers for me. i also want to apologize for not posting as much as i should... ive been having a hard time trying to figure out what to talk about. but- then again i thinks its more amusing when you find some random topic to talk about. so- i will try to do better.

the strawberries invade.

yep, well... i went to the strawberry festival in a.g. today. it was way better than the one in santa maria for sure. (but- i have good memories of the one here in s.m. lol! carl and alyssa know what i mean... haha.) it was good to go get my mind diverted to something else. otherwise, today would have been a lot more sad than it was. man, i got a good laugh outta the girl dressed as a strawberry walking down the street, singing about how we should go get old fashion shortcake at doc burnstiens. singing to the tune of..?? well when i remember the tune i might just add it in here... cause right now im having a hard time remembering it. go figure. i felt for her... but- i guess it pays. hu.........

....

well, it comes down to this. kaleb is leaving in two days, and i'm pretty sad:( i wish he wouldn't go but- if he feels like he should and wants to go, then he should go with it. i don't want to be one of those people who bug and say things like," you shouldn't go. OR "see thats why you should stay here," every chance i get. i mean, hes already had a hard time deciding, and now that hes decided, (sort of) why would i want to make him feel bad or put him back at the beginning of the situation again. so with that, i just want to say," i don't want you to go kaleb but- if thats what you think will be best for you, then i'll miss you. and i hope you have a good time back home and that you'll visit as much as you can." if anyone would like to leave a comment for kaleb, please do so. (although i'm sure you would want to leave it on his blog... but- you still can here too. if you want.)

playing with fire...

well, i almost burned down the house this morning. it was pretty bad, i'm serious. as most of you know, i have a cup of tea every morning. so, i filled the tea kettle and turned on the burner. but- i turned on the wrong burner. and well, the pie that was sitting ontop of that burner... caught a light and burned like never before. i walked out for a second, then when i walked back in i saw it and screamed. well, it wasn't a scream, more like between a scream and a yelp. (if thats possible.) not too late after my scelp, my mom came in, then she screamed (she really screamed) and called for dean. i in the mean time, was opening windows and turning on fans. dean got it out and that's about it. then as soon as it's outside, my mom says," amandalin! why...!? don't play with fire!!!" (she was kidding, she knows that i didn't seriously try to burn the house down.)
keep in mind that this happened on our way out the door, while we were all dressed and ready for church.... i will say, the smell of burnt plastic in not pleasant. burnt paper, yes. burning plastic, no.

in His peace

these last few days have been pretty hard, and still today has been too. but- after all the worrying and sadness. i realized that some things weren't meant to last long. worry and sadness being some of them. i have finally given up on trying to do things on my own and just rely on God. in his perfect plan there is peace, which we all need. something that i myself, have been keeping myself from. it has definitely been a long journey getting here and the journey isn't completely ended either. i'm sure it will be this way for a quite a while longer, but i've reached the beginning of the end... there is no turning back, no restart... so i'm glad to say, i taken a step further in giving my life fully to christ. a step further in following all the taken steps before me. left in the sand for all those, like myself, to follow.

a late night snack...

i really did just have a late night snack. and it was good; an avacodo sandwhich with mayo, salt, pepper, on wheat bread. with- the bread toasted. and why? cause i went to a friends soccer game today, and got home around 7:55 pm, then did some chores. so by the time i was done, it was late and i hadnt eaten. i will let you know that her soccer game was awesome and her team won 9 to 5. it was a good game.
and just for all the mothers out there, (even though im sure none read my blog) a happy mothers day to you. even though, its not offically mothers day.

constant guide

Beautiful in more ways than one.
Unfailing in thought,
Ever vivid.
Like the constant dripping of water,
Steady and unwavering.
Faithful as the dawning morning,
Ever expected.
Like the velvet sky of night...
Your hand gently guides me.
Turning me away from dangers,
Hidden along the narrow path.
Turning my heart away
From broken commandments,
Keeping my eyes ever steady on you.
Your light shines,
A constant guide.
Like a lighthouse,
In a storm.
Ever warding lost ships,
From the death of a sheer rock face.
God, my guide...
Keep me in your arms of guidence.

its like falling asleep in class...

man, so far today has been well... almost outta control. remember that insane babysitting i talked about recently. well, this is the fourth day of me doing so. i will say, it gets you pretty tired. i really wish i could go to sleep. but- i cant. (lets see... one, two, three... yep seven kids... i mean its definitely not the largest number of kids ive babysat. but still.)
guess what, a few more hours and we'll be home bound. ahhh, i cant wait to sleep in my own bed. im pretty excited to go home. i mean, i cant say i havent enjoyed myself at all. there were some great things about coming down here, aside for the the debate i had to watch and the babysitting getting crazy... haha! man last night during the debate, i almost fell asleep (and more than once too.) it was pretty funny. its a good thing my mom didnt see. she would not have been happy. it was fun to laughing to myself, every time i did.

fast food is deadly...

awww... being out of town, where you are babysitting insane cousins and where your uncle is trying to get you to do his chores. where everyone sleeps until 12:00 and eats fast food every meal. (at least the two they get in.) but then again i guess they get in three, cause they stay out and are awake until somewhere around 1:oo every morning. go figure.
we however went roller skating last night. it was pretty fun. i am happy to say that i only fell once, playing whip- lash with my aunt and uncle. hopefully, i will be able to put up a few of the pictures from our skate trip. we'll see, if i can get a hold of the camera. well, thats about it.

flying, demented rabbits...

well, we're going out of town again. but- will for sure, be back on monday.
man, last night i had a few weird dreams. i'll only put down one. okay, well in my dream i was in my room, when i saw a bunny rabbit. so i went to go pet it. and it flew at my face, i freaked out! i put the cat in there and left the room. a few minutes later, i went in again and there were like four more rabbits, all as demented as the first. so, i went to get the vaccum cleaner. (haha) but- as i was going a rabbit stated to scream. yes! the cat got one! then as i bent down to pick it up, another one came at me so i picked up the nearest object and smashed it. and- it lived, so i threw the object (which i found to be a wooden spoon). then........ it died. i cant say that i really remember what happened next. i think i pretty much did the same thing over and over again. so ya...

lost in translation...

well, i just found out that most of the other people going on the mission trip already sent out their letters. and guess what, i havent. but- i have a reason that i wish wasnt a reason. my mom wanted to go through it with me and correct everthing that didnt seem right to her. which all in all isnt a bad thing. but, i wish we could have done it sooner. cause i feel left behind... and am worried that it wont send it out soon enough, and wont get the support needed. (at which time i would put my own money in.) then again, if its Gods will that i go, he will provide the way.
*okay, i have a question. have you ever put hope in something, and then suddenly you realize that youve been looking at it like a dream? then you doubt whether or not you should have hope about ... (qoute, dot dot dot, unquote.) and you confuse yourself, cause you want to have hope but you dont want to waste it in something that you almost know for sure wont matter. so after confusing yourself and to some extent, upsetting yourself, you realize that theres nothing you can really do but pray about it. man, then the wait... "is it your will God? or is it not? whats going to happen!!??"
*then to twist your thoughts more, you think about how it was in Gods will to have you feel that way. to be confused over a true or false hope.
well, thats about all i can say. for the time being. so until later posts... ttyl.

drowning...

i feel like i'm drowning in an endless knife ocean of; chores, school, upcoming events, the need for money (jobs), and daily struggles. one wrong move and, all is lost. it seems like i take two steps forward and ten back. but then again it's life. i know. but hey i can complain. jk.
i thought this next school year was going to be better than this past one but- i was wrong. next year is going to be even worse. then again what was i thinking... its a new grade which means more less enjoyable work. man, physics... who wants to do physics? i'm still trying to convince my mom other wise. but it doesn't seem to be working. any suggestions?
on another note... the mission trip is coming up. and i'm really happy and excited to be doing that. let me tell you, i had some second thoughts. i wasn't sure if i was doing something i wanted or something God wanted. so, i've prayed about it. and don't feel the want to go, any less extreme. but- then again, how do i know that i'm not telling myself to feel that way? ahhh, its all pretty confusing. i think thats the last way i should be feeling though. i guess i need to stop confusing myself and just trust in God... please everyone pray for this situation...

...life-less and breathing...

wow, i have no idea how this wasn't already done. but- i have two days until i have to turn in the deposit for wildwood. so, i'm a little worried. everyone cross your fingers and hope i get it turned in on time.
man, i stayed up until 4:15 am two nights ago. and i'm still try to recover. lol! we watched; corpse bride, elizabethtown, and king kong. by the end of king kong only two people we're a wake. and i being one of them, was awake until 4:15. man, then ontop of that, a few hours shy of me falling asleep, i was woken by a bean bag hitting me in the face.* revenge was taken.* so, i'm feeling kinda life-less. and for some strange reason, i decided to go to morning mana today. i felt kinda bad, cause i almost fell asleep during it. i could have fallen asleep right there, in starbucks, with all those people standing around. i was so close to giving in. but- i fought the embarrassment, and prevailed. i could have gotten a tea or coffee, but i'm on a budget... so no caffeinated drink for me.
we went to the farmers market yesterday. it was pretty fun, lots of food. but- i didn't get to have any. oh well... at least i got to go into a few stores. and i ran into a few friends while i was there. so anyways, i'll talk to you all later.

a little emo, i know...

you know i've felt pretty lonely these past weeks. but- then somewhere in the middle of it, i asked the question," am i really all that lonely? why am i making myself feel that way?" so, i decided that i would use the time i had alone, to get into a deep bible study. and i slowly started to forget... instead of feeling depressed and lonely, i felt very content. God, is so awesome! Hes always there, so you can never really be lonely. it feels so good to know, that you can always depend on him. i mean, i knew that before, but- i guess i didn't pay a whole lot of attention in that area. i'm pretty sure, He used this time to point that out to me and to get closer with my fam.
God is good.

late nights early mornings

man! it has been pretty crazy... we have been jumping from one place to another, since we've been out of town. and yet, there still remains some jumping to do. needless to say, there has been late nights and early mornings, to go along with all of this. so anyways...
let me tell you, i violated the law. well, my mom's law anyways... not purposely. (i would never do a thing like that.) it is known that i am lactose. but- because i really wanted a frappachino, i decided that it wouldn't be that big of a deal if i had one. cause, i haven't had dairy for a while and when i do that, i can usually have a little. i was wrong. let me tell you, i haven't had a stomach like that for a long time. so i've changed my thought in that area," i think after you haven't had dairy for a long time, and you randomly decide to have it, the stomachs are worse."
the civil war dance is in a few days... which means, that my dress, thats still ripped from the last dance, needs to be fixed. but- at least its not a really big thing. (its only the waste band.) i'm pretty excited. my first one, was a little confusing. for many different reasons. some of which i can't really explain. so, this year i'll be better prepared. hopefully.
i still haven't found my electric violin... so or those of you who have connections in that area. please let me know if you come across any cool ones. well, i will talk to you all later.